Wisdom Is Calling-May, 24, 2024

Today’s Readings

AM  Psalm 16, 17; PM Psalm 22

Prov. 8:1-21; 2 John 1-13; Matt. 12:1-14

Today’s Reflection

Imagine someone standing outside of your home shouting as you are leaving for school or work, “Be mindful of me in the ways you engage your day!” Then, you arrive at your destination and there she is again, “If you let me be a part of your thinking and your speaking, you will speak truth and wisdom and knowledge!” You head to lunch with friends and there she is again, calling out, “What I have to say to you is more valuable than the most precious jewel!”

In a way, that is how the Book of Proverbs describes Sophia, the embodiment of wisdom. She is placed at the busiest locations of our lives “On the heights, at the crossroads she takes her stand, beside the gates in front of the town, at the entrance of the portals she cries out…”(8:2-3) 

According to Sr. Joyce Rupp, “The Book of Wisdom describes Sophia guiding the Exodus people through the wilderness: ‘She led them by a marvelous road. She herself was their shelter by day and their starlight through the night.’ (Wis. 10:17).*

Throughout our days we are offered opportunities to be led by our own impulsiveness and proclivities, or by God’s wisdom. Our thoughts manifest into speech and actions that impact of course our own lives, but also the lives of those around us. Wisdom teaches that those who seek her presence and guidance will have riches greater than any material gain. 

How might Wisdom be calling to you in your life now? Where are you seeking, or would you be prudent to be seeking, holy guidance as you choose a way forward in your life? 

I offer this prayer as a reminder that God’s Divine Wisdom-Sophia is near and beckoning us to call her closer as we discern our days.

Holy Wisdom, Sophia

I pause in this moment, aware of my desire to live in accordance to God’s will.

I seek to honor the gift of life that I have been given.

I seek to honor the lives of those around me.

It is easy for me to be distracted by the shininess of the imitation gems of attention, control, and material wealth. 

I pause in this moment, acknowledging your presence,

beckoning me to the richness of living with integrity, honesty, courage,

humility, joy, and compassion.

Guide my thoughts, speech, and actions this day,

that I might live in you,

and you in me.

Amen. 

One way to strengthen our relationship with Wisdom is to go away on retreat. If you are interested in joining me along with a small group of fellow pilgrims for a retreat "Were Not Our Hearts Burning?" with Fr. Vincent Pizzuto at St. Columba's in Inverness, CA September 24-29, 2024, Please email me for information.



Grace and Peace,

Mary Bea+

* Joyce Rupp, https://uscatholic.org/articles/201601/desperately-seeking-sophia/.

Question for Reflection:

Where is God calling you to pause and discern a wise path forward?

Change is hard - May 22, 2024

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 119:1-24; PM Psalm 12, 13, 14
Prov. 6:1-19; 1 John 5:1-12; Matt. 11:16-24

When I began studies at the School of Public Health at UAB nearly 25 years ago, I remember walking down the hallway and seeing the offices for the Department of Health and Human Behavior. Before then, I had no idea there were groups of professors who taught about ways people consider and respond to change, much less how studies could be conducted to better understand populations and test interventions to address needs identified. As a young twenty-something, I recall sitting in lectures and absorbing what was being said about the transtheoretical model of behavioral change, and yet, I did not have life experience or exposure at that time to comprehend the wisdom and methodologies imparted. I had not come face to face with populations continuing to engage in unhealthy behaviors, even though other avenues had been offered. Now with more experience behind me, I see these challenges in my own life and in the lives of others. Change is hard. We do not adapt quickly. New patterns take a while to build.

As I read the Gospel according to Matthew appointed for today, I think about the challenges of behavior change. Jesus performs “deeds of power” in Bethsaida and Chorazin, but the people do not change their ways of living. It is baffling! Jesus begins to admonish them: “‘Woe to you, Chorazin! Woe to you, Bethsaida! For if the deeds of power done in you had been done in Tyre and Sidon, they would have repented long ago in sackcloth and ashes.” (v. 11:21) He is irked by their resistance to change. He warns them that repentance is deeply important in reconnecting with God.

We humans are challenging, aren’t we? And yet, Jesus prayed for us. He persevered in doing ministry with and for us. The best we can do is commit to paying attention to the deeds of power and love set before us. We can study God’s word. We can pray. And, we can extend to others the grace we hope God offers to us, though we are stiff necked and stubborn.

With God’s help,

Katherine+

Reflection and Challenge

Have you ever read about the stages of change that we go through when starting a new routine or breaking a negative habit? Take a look and see what you think. Where does faith enter into this scientific model?

Sabbatical - May 20, 2024

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 1, 2, 3; PM: Psalm 4, 7; Prov. 3:11-20; 1 John 3:18-4:6; Matt. 11:1-6

John was separated from his friends and his disciples in today’s Gospel. He sent word from prison to share the profound work of Jesus Christ.  I find it timely that John is apart from the community that knows him best.

Today is the first day of my sabbatical. I wrote this last week in preparation for this day. I have turned my email off and have no plans to check my email until September 2. Over the next three months, I will travel with family, begin some coursework at Sewanee, the University of the South, and pray for renewal as we get ready for our next chapter at Saint Stephen’s together. 

I ask for your prayers as readers of our Daily Faith reflections. And I look forward to your meeting through her writing, the Rev. Sally Herring, who will begin writing the Monday reflection next week, and has joined our clergy staff as Associate Rector for Outreach and Pastoral Care. I look forward to sharing on the other side, and hopefully many new stories and images for our reflecting on the Daily Office together.

Faithfully,

John+

Questions for Self-Reflection:  What are ways you have been separated from your own community before?  How did it shape you as a person? 

Walking With Grace-May 17, 2024

Today’s Readings

AM Psalm 102; PM Psalm 107:1-32
Jer. 31:27-34; Eph. 5:1-20; Matt. 9:9-17

Today’s Reflection

Ten years ago, I spent a week in retreat with Ilia Delio, a Franciscan sister and scientist. I worked hard to understand much of what scholarly Ilia said, however, it was easy to be enlivened by her presence. Her way of being ignited joy and curiosity in me. There was one phrase Ilia offered that has stayed with me, “evolution is God drawing us toward deeper and deeper love.”

In today's Gospel, Jesus calls into question core ways of being in the service of drawing people to deeper and deeper love. Jesus says:

• to Matthew the tax collector—leave your lucrative and unjust livelihood behind and follow me. 

• to the Pharisees, who studied Torah and prayed as sacrifice to God —I desire mercy not sacrifice.

• to John the Baptist’s austere followers—Why fast now? The days of mourning are coming.

Transformation requires releasing that which does not serve. Jesus speaks of new wine needing new wine skins. In essence, Jesus is saying "If you want to follow me you are going to need to be a new wineskin." Transformed Matthew is the embodiment of a new wine skin.

This week, I have been gifted five days in (relative) silence at a friend’s mountain home with our Bernedoodle Grace. I was hopeful that Grace and I would hike a new spot each day in-between praying, reading, and writing. That hope went unfulfilled. Rain and fog embraced the mountain—nurturing wildflowers, rhododendron, mountain laurel, and azaleas. The first rainy morning I was disappointed. Grace still needed time outside. Thus, I put on my Patagonia jacket, covered it in a rain coat, squished my feet into my hiking boots, and walked with Grace in the rain. 

At first, my usually protected-from-the-elements self resisted the chilly rain. Isn’t it amazing how our homes, and air conditioning, and heat, and cars make it easy for us to have minimal contact with the outside elements? When Grace hopped her 75-pound self straight up in the air and came splashing down in a puddle, I could not suppress a laugh. She started pulling me to play with her. Any dog trainer will tell you that is behavior you want to curb immediately. I am no dog trainer. Grace’s joy became my own. We were silly together, me pretending to chase her, her pulling on the leash, mud splashing her belly and my jeans. Alive. So ALIVE.

Since then, each day Grace and I have trod the same streets in the rain. Instead of swiftly climbing new and exciting mountain peaks each day, I am noticing the same brilliant red and cheery pink rhododendron buds opening just a bit more on each walk. I am enthralled with these tall, never-seen-before by me, majestic ferns gently unfurling their fronds. Each walk, just hours apart, unwrapping new gifts. One morning I literally spoke to a freshly-bloomed wild rose bush, "Look at you beautiful!" (Extrovert on silent retreat?)

The longer I am steeped in silence, the slower I move, the keener my sight, the deeper my breaths. I pray God is doing something new in me. I am aware as I prepare to return home, living out this renewed call from Christ will require letting go of some familiar and treasured ways of being. This time in nature, prayer, silence, away from technology (mostly), is core to my staying connected to the Source of All that is Good. Without this kind of renewal, I run the risk of spewing toxic busyness, rather than spilling over with compassion and joy and wisdom.

It is a luxury to be supported by this parish and my family to have sacred time away; and to have generous friends sharing their home. I am profoundly grateful. Not all of us can take even a few hours from the demands of work and family. I pray God’s renewal and restoration for you. If I can be a partner in wondering what new God is stirring in you, or how you can set aside sacred time, even in the busyness of life, please reach out. It would be my honor to walk with you.

Question for Self-Reflection:

What one thing might God be inviting you to release to make space for God to do something new in you?

Letters - May 15

Today’s Readings:

AM Psalm 101, 109:1-4 (5-19) 20-30; PM Psalm 119:121-144
Isa. 4:2-6; Eph. 4:1-16; Matt. 8:28-34

My longest childhood friend is named Katherine. We grew up in the same neighborhood and went to school together from preschool through high school graduation. Our families have been close for more than four decades. Katherine’s older daughter was preparing for her own high school graduation a couple of years ago. Katherine asked me to write a letter to Hannah, marking this threshold of life and offering encouragement to stay grounded in her Christian faith. I pondered what to write to this lovely young person who I watched growing up, often from a distance. I knew her, yet I was not sure how much she really knew me. After procrastinating for too long, I began writing.

As I sit with Paul’s letter to the church at Ephesus (4:1-16) that is appointed in our Daily Office lectionary today, I am thinking about the notes and letters we write to one another. Letters can be transformative. They shape the person who receives it, and they form or reaffirm the one who writes the message. Paul asks those reading his missile to “lead a life worthy of the calling to which [they] have been called” with humility, patience, and a commitment to maintaining unity. And why? Because they are grounded in the uniting bonds of God’s love. Perhaps Paul needs to feel the reminders of staying humble and patient, as he learns of the early churches ways of fumbling and stumbling to walk in the ways taught by Jesus.

Paul goes further on this topic of being grounded in God’s unity, writing, “There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called to the one hope of your calling; one Lord, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father of all, who is above all and through all and in all.” (v. 4-6) Do these words sound familiar to you? They ring in my ears, for sure! This portion of Paul’s letter to the Ephesians is foundational to the beginning of the service of Holy Baptism in the Episcopal church. In our current Book of Common Prayer, these words are found on page 299:

Priest              There is one Body and one Spirit;

People            There is one hope in God's call to us;

Priest  One Lord, one Faith, one Baptism;

People            One God and Father of all.

I invite you to think about the letters you have received that have formed you in meaningful ways. Maybe there were hard truths imparted or deep words of love. There could have been stories of hope, or reminders of family history. Simple or extensive, those letters are messages we hold onto. Let us also hold onto the reflection of the apostle Paul, who keeps us grounded in the invitation to speak the truth in love so that we may mature in ways that make us more like Jesus and more connected with one another.

In resurrection hope,

Katherine+

Reflection and Challenge

Re-read Ephesians 4:1-16.

Then, take time to write a letter to someone today. Share how meaningful they are to you. Incorporate messages of hope and care. Speak to the ways God's love pulls you together in community.

Inheritance - May 13

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 89:1-18; PM Psalm 89:19-52; Joshua 1:1-9; Eph. 3:1-13; Matt. 8:5-17

When a loved one or a family member leaves someone an inheritance, it becomes known to that person, and the idea is that it makes a difference in the person’s life. As I write this reflection, trying to put words on paper about inheritance brings out odd feelings. Not everyone receives one, and nothing is contingent on merit, and even the discussion of inheritance can bring up painful memories of broken relationships and what were supposed to be gifts that weren’t quite what a loved one expected. In the best of situations, a gift passed on reminds someone of the profound love of a person who can no longer express that love in any other way. The parable of the prodigal son in Luke or the story of Esau and Jacob in Genesis are reminders that the desire for inheritance is a part of the human condition. 

My maternal grandmother left a small gift for each of her seventeen grandchildren. I was able to make a down payment on the ring that I gave my wife when we got engaged. My Grammie’s gift enabled me to share love and hope with the person I dreamed of creating a life together. 

In the first chapter of the letter to the Ephesians, this language of inheritance shows up as the gift we have received from Jesus Christ. Today’s section has a similar theme when the author writes that “the Gentiles have become fellow-heirs, members of the same body, and sharers in the promise in Christ Jesus through the gospel.” We have inherited a gift from Jesus Christ. 

As Christians, we believe that our life is fundamentally different because of God’s gift to us.  Across the spectrum of Christianity, we might see that gift differently, but universally, we should believe that it changes the nature of our lives. It is an inheritance meant to change the course of our lives and give us the peace and grace to share God’s vision of love and faithfulness. 

We have received a gift, an inheritance from the one who loves us and created us, the most important gift of our lives. The better question: how will we use it?

John+

Questions for Self-Reflection: How can I use the gift and inheritance of God's grace and love to change the course of my life and others?

A Strong Foundation--May 10, 2024

Today’s Readings

AM Psalm 85, 86; 1 Sam. 2:1-10; Eph. 2:1-10; Matt. 7:22-27

Today’s Reflection

Our home was built in 1923, it is exactly 100 years old. When we first purchased the house in 2017, we embarked upon some renovations. Plaster walls that were removed revealed original wooden planks filled in with "horse hair plaster"--something I had never heard of before. It was surprising to see little hairs sticking out between the wooden boards. I found myself wondering about the craftsmen (likely all men at that time) who had created our home. How long did it take them to build it? What complications arose? What was happening in their own homes at that time? There is something nostalgia-producing about residing in a place that has stood the test of 100 years. Since the house has held up well in this past century, the builders must have provided a strong foundation. Today, my family benefits from their diligent work, even after all of the craftsmen are likely no longer living.

In the 7th chapter of Matthew, Jesus instructs his listeners not to judge, to treat others how they would like to be treated, to enter through the narrow gate even though it is hard, and then he warns of false prophets. Finally, Jesus says, "Everyone then who hears these words of mine and acts on them will be like a wise man who built his house on rock." Those who hear but do not act, have built their houses on sand.

The foundation of our faith is to read and study scripture, pray and worship together, and importantly, to act upon what God is teaching us. If we want our faith to stand the test of time, our foundation must be strong. If we want our mark on this world to be positive and to live beyond our physical presence on this earth, we must act on the teachings of Jesus--literally embodying the faith. Perhaps the first step is to listen for Jesus' words on a regular basis. You are reading these scripture-based reflections, so you are already off to a great start. Thank you! Today, I invite you to read at least the Gospel, which can be found in the link below. Then, sit silently, maybe even light a candle, and ask Jesus, "What shall you have me do this day?" When you are ready, give thanks for any insight gained, or if none has come, promise to listen for Jesus' voice throughout the day. As you leave the quiet of this space, resolve to continue to build a foundation of faith that will be a shelter for generations to come.

Grace and Peace,

Mary Bea+

Questions for Reflection

What does it mean to you to have a strong foundation of faith? Would you describe your foundation as built on rock or sand? Is there something Jesus is inviting you to do in order to live out his teachings?

All Shall Be Well – May 8, 2024

Today’s Readings:

Julian of Norwich: Psalm 27:1-9; Hebrews 10:19-24; John 4:21-26

Eve of Ascension Day: Psalm 68:1-20; 2 Kings 2:1-15; Rev. 5:1-14

It is hard to see God in the middle of really hard things. Especially the hard things that human hands continue to muddle and amplify. Disappointment and disaffection mount. There are hostilities and acrimonious exchanges. Trust is broken. What was before is gone. It is hard to see a path forward where peace is possible.

Perhaps as you read these words, you think about events on the world stage: conflict between Ukraine and Russia, Israel and Hamas. Perhaps there are issues within our nation that come to mind: demonstrations and counterdemonstrations at universities, the former president in court on trial. Or maybe you think about something closer to your own home…violence in your neighborhood, your kids facing something upending and scary, or a relationship in turmoil.

None of this is easy. Some of it we talk about. Some of it we hide away. And many times, my hope is that these things resolve in an easy, quick, and peaceful way, so that stability returns in the way that brings greater understanding and connection. Perhaps this is a Pollyanna-inspired wish. It is also a longing for God’s love to overwhelm all spaces in our world that are rife with pain, so that the healing presence of the Divine brings joy into fullness. Yet the change does not happen all at once, as far as I can tell.

It is sometimes helpful for me to sit in consultation with a spiritual director to contemplate the hard things of life, and where I stand. And discern where God is. Perhaps you have done this, too. One piece of wisdom I gleaned at the CREDO retreat in New Hampshire a couple of weeks ago came from wonderings someone offered: “What if prayer is less about a time for us to talk to God about all that is on our hearts, and more about an invitation for us to be still and receive from God all that we need in that moment?”

There are many hard questions upon us. They can keep us up at night. They can fuel intrusive thoughts of worry and angst. They can cast a pall upon our fullness of life. Some of those questions we can add our hands to the mix in finding solutions. Others we can take to God in prayer. There are others, too, we can look to as guides for inspiration.

One is Dame Julian of Norwich, who we remember each May 8th and who lived in the 14th century. After a medical emergency and near-death experience in her early teens, she experienced visions of Jesus the Christ. She recovered and lived the life of a contemplative. She offered counsel and spiritual advice to those in need of guidance. And she wrote extensively on the holy visions she experienced, and her book Revelations of Divine Love is available.

One of Dame Julian’s most repeated words of wisdom is derived from this story: “A matter that greatly troubled her was the fate of those who through no fault of their own had never heard the Gospel. She never received a direct answer to her questions about them, except to be told that whatever God does is done in Love, and therefore ‘that all shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well.’”

It is a larger hope that Julian voiced, for she maintained that all that God does is done in love – and that this redeeming love is always at play. May you feel the healing grace of Divine love in your life today. I invite you to join me in praying for all who are yearning for peace in time of conflict:

O God, you have bound us together in a common life. Help us, in the midst of our struggles for justice and truth, to confront one another without hatred or bitterness, and to work together with mutual forbearance and respect; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen. (The Book of Common Prayer, page 824))

In resurrection hope,

Katherine+

Reflection and Challenge

Reframe how you pray today. Sit and invite the Holy Spirit to fill and feed you as the Divine knows your needs.

Good Thorns Choking the Vines - May 6

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 80; PM Psalm 77, [79]; Lev. 25:35-55; Col. 1:9-14; Matt. 13:1-16

Last Friday, a letter from my son’s school arrived in our mailbox, a full schedule of his classes next year.  He will be moving into Junior High where coursework becomes more difficult.  He has decided to add a period to his day that he can also participate in band. He also wants to run track, compete on a robotics team, and is committed to playing competitive soccer again.  Anne and I looked at the schedule and found ourselves wondering just what will give in the fall.  When will homework happen?  Will Jack ever again get a good night’s sleep?  Are we letting our children put too much pressure on themselves?  These were just a few of the questions we were asking. 

Today’s Gospel is the parable of the sower, where the sower scatters seeds all over the place including ground where thorns grow up and choke the vines, keeping the vines from reaching their full potential.  I wonder sometimes if the thorns in this parable could be good things that require lots of attention choking up all of the available free time and space to grow.  My children certainly don’t know how to be bored, and that’s a little concerning. 

I don’t have answers, and both Anne and I know we are not the only people struggling with this reality.  It seems to be more and more prevalent in our own community.  And it’s why we need the wisdom of our faith tradition to help us make challenging decisions and prioritize our lives.  This is faithful and holy discernment and we’ve got work to do.  And if you feel the same way, know that you are not alone.

Faithfully,

John+

Questions for Self-Reflection:  Where can I create more space to grow in the person God is calling me to be?

Shine the Light of Wellness – May 1

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 72; PM Psalm 119:73-96
Lev. 19:1-18; 1 Thess. 5:12-28; Matt. 6:19-24

Over the last week, I attended CREDO, a continuing education retreat for Episcopal clergy. The purpose of the gathering is for total wellness: physical, spiritual, financial, psychological, and vocational. The leadership team pays attention to every detail so that there are spaces for educational sessions, personal reflection time, small group conversations, daily worship, and invitations to professional consultations. And fun. After one week away, clergy can return home reinvigorated and with direction to reengage in our calls to serve God with the best that is within us.

CREDO 412 met at the Barbara C. Harris Camp and Conference Center in Greenfield, New Hampshire. I joined 30 clergy from across the country as we learned and laughed, shared healthy meals and hiked, and laughed some more. While it is consistently warm in Alabama at this time of the year, in New Hampshire it was solidly “sweater weather”. Below-freezing temperatures on multiple mornings rendered brisk steps during morning walks. I noted stark branches on trees and shrubs, not yet opening the buds of promise upon their shoots. And as the week progressed, the weather warmed and the sun shone brightly. Those buds of promise began blossoming. Sepia switches burst forth with yellow flowers. Lime-green leaves emerged tenderly on boughs. God brought about transformation and new growth in rural New Hampshire – to the flora and to those attending CREDO.

As I reflect with gratitude on the gift of an intentional wellness retreat, a piece of today’s reading from the gospel according to Matthew stands out particularly. Jesus offers the Sermon on the Mount, and this is a portion midway through: “The eye is the lamp of the body. So, if your eye is healthy, your whole body will be full of light; but if your eye is unhealthy, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!” (Matthew 6:22-23)

Our eyes do often portray how we are doing. Someone with tired, watery eyes may be coming down with a cold. A person with squinted eyes, glaring at you or someone else, is angry. Bright, sparkly eyes indicate wholeness or playfulness. Maybe we avert eye contact with people when we are uncomfortable or sad – because we do not want to connect or communicate how we are.

I wonder why Jesus includes this piece of wisdom and observation in the Sermon on the Mount. He begins this chapter with how to pray – humbly and with decorum. He gives words to pray that we call the Lord’s Prayer. Jesus advises his audience to forgive others and they will be forgiven by God. When fasting, it is to be a choice of private devotion, not for public feedback. Then, he speaks about generous living. “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth” where things get used, consumed, and decay. “No one can serve two masters.” The lightness of our being – and how we display it – is sandwiched between the two.

I believe that generous and intentional interactions are rooted in how we share the Christ-light within ourselves. When we can get in touch with the core of God’s love, we beam with that brightness and pass it on. Sometimes our bodies and our lives have scars and wounds that dim that light. May healing and peace be upon you this day, so that you may shine with the hope of Christ.

In resurrection hope,

Katherine+

Reflection and Challenge

Reread this scripture from Matthew 6:19-24 and listen for how it resonates within you. How do you engage in eye contact with others? How will you share the light of God’s love in this world today?

Trust Ambiguity - April 22

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 41, 52; PM Psalm 44; Exod. 32:1-20; Col 3:18-4:6(7-18); Matt. 5:1-10

Did you read today’s epistle from Colossians?  How did it sit with you?  “Wives be subject to your husbands… Slaves, obey your earthly masters.”  This text is called a household code, and household codes show up in a similar format in three of the Epistles.   I suspect it is not hard to imagine how these texts could be misused in relationships with an imbalance of power. 

Years ago, I read Plato’s Republic, Plato’s exploration of justice, philosophy, and political theory related to society.  It was written around the year 375 BC.  Oddly, a text that is almost identical to the household codes found in scripture can also be found in Plato’s Republic, and I suspect there is a strong correlation between the Roman Empire and Plato’s Republic, but that is not my expertise. 

I remember asking a seminary professor if Paul had plagiarized the text.  The professor asked a question instead.  “What if Paul was sneaking that text in to show that Christianity could exist within the Roman Empire instead in a more subversive way, suggesting that Christianity wasn’t a threat to the Pax Romani?”    We don’t know the mind of Paul, but that question has stuck with me for over a decade. 

More than trying to answer the question it exposed the possibility that Scripture is filled with nuance and context and there is more grey area than we might be comfortable with when it comes to the Word of God. 

A former clergy colleague of mine would often remind me to trust ambiguity.  I’m still learning, but it seems more and more important every day.  In this present day, we seem addicted to certainty, knowledge, and truth, and maybe there is something faithful about trusting ambiguity, a reminder to be more open than we might normally be. 

Faithfully,

John+

Questions for Self-Reflection:  What stories do you struggle with in scripture?  Where could you trust ambiguity in your own life? 

Good Shepherds--April 19, 2024

Today’s Readings

St. Alphage, Archbishop of Canterbury and Martyr

Psalm 34: 1-8, Colossians 1:24-29, Luke 12: 35-40

Reflection

Today we honor St. Alphage, Archbishop of Canterbury from 1005 until he was martyred in 1012. Alphage was beloved for his sense of justice. He was unwilling to allow his mostly poor people pay an outrageous ransom for his release from the Danes. Ultimately, Alphage's captors killed him.

This Sunday is what is often termed, "Good Shepherd Sunday." As I prepare my sermon for our time together, I am especially reminded of Ezekiel Chapter 34 which outlines the qualities of a good shepherd, as well as the qualities of a bad shepherd. The Good Shepherd cares more for the sheep than for his or her own life even. The bad shepherd is self-serving to the detriment of the sheep. Obviously St. Alphage was a brave and sacrificial shepherd. As a priest, I cannot help but wonder "Have I been a good shepherd?" I will continue to pray with that answer, knowing I have not always lived up to the promise of the vows I took when ordained 10 years ago. I pray and hope I will grow in courage and sacrifice for the sake of the Gospel and our Christian community.

I am also remembering with gratitude those "shepherds" in my life who follow in Jesus' way. Jesus of course not only being the "Good," but the "Best Shepherd." One shepherd loved her people so much she would show up in court, or the psychiatric ward at any time of the day or night to let them know they were not alone in the most vulnerable times of their lives.

Another, was my mentor in seminary. She gently guided me, held me in a crisis of faith, and inspired me to love more expansively.

In preparation for this Sunday's service, I encourage you to consider who has been a good shepherd to you. Also, how does envisioning Jesus as our Good Shepherd impact your relationship with him?

Grace and Peace,

Mary Bea+

Questions for Reflection

Who has been a good shepherd for you? How did he or she model Jesus' sacrificial love for us? Who might you be invited to shepherd at this time?

Feeling the BOOM of God's power - April 17

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 38; PM Psalm 119:25-48
Exod. 19:16-25; Col. 1:15-23; Matt. 3:13-17 

Growing up, our neighborhood association in Old Cloverdale had street parties annually. My dad loved a good party. He loved music and throngs of people gathering. He was at his best in these times. As such, my parents were some of the leaders in pulling these fun gatherings together. I remember sitting on the floor in the back living room of our house to listen as the adults met to make plans for getting the band, setting up tents, getting permits from the city to block off streets, and even more creative ideas like other live entertainment – that included a belly dancer one year. (Perhaps this is one of the reasons I love working at Saint Stephen’s, for we coordinate creatively to plan the events at this lovely place!)

The street dances would start in the late afternoon on a warm summer night and would go on until probably 10 o’clock. I recall one band who played. Their music was loud and it was dark. The drummer played boldly and was well amplified by the sound system. The drum’s beat resonated in my chest. I could feel the music and was mesmerized by the wonder of that sensation. I drew near and sat on the rocky, paved road in front of the band to keep experiencing that pulsing resonance in my nine-year-old self until my mom gathered me to come home as the party was ending.

I think the resonating boom of that drum shaking my insides as I read from the Book of Exodus this morning. Moses and the Israelites have come to the base of Mount Sinai to meet God. There is a thick cloud of smoke around the mountain, plus flashing lightning and booming thunder. As the plumes of smoke rose, the mountain shook and the blast of a trumpet escalated in volume. Moses spoke and God answered in thunder. I can imagine the wonder and terror of that space. All senses are in play: smelling the burning fire, feeling the shaking of the ground, hearing the rumbling of the thunder, seeing the bursts of lightning, and perhaps even tasting the acrid smokiness in the air. I am moved by the power of God shared so vividly in this scripture.

“Go down and warn the people not to break through to the Lord to look,” God says to Moses. “Otherwise, many of them will perish. Even the priests who approach the Lord must consecrate themselves or the Lord will break out against them.” Those words stuck with me as I read this scripture: “The Lord will break out against them.” Isn’t that fascinating and terrifying? This phrasing highlights the untamed power that God holds, though it is restrained (for now). It is worth noting that today’s scripture directly precedes when God spells out the commandments to the Israelites – how they are to revere God and live in community with one another. God is getting the attention of the Israelites before speaking from heaven to impart the commandments to them.

As I go through this day, whether it is to be wacky or boring, my prayer is that each of us can reflect on the awe of God and the way God’s power resonates within our cores. Let us all be attentive to God’s presence and glory, giving thanks.

Katherine+

Reflection and Challenge

How do you see and feel the boom of God's power in your life? How do you blend the vast might of God with the approachable presence of Jesus?

Trusting and Resting--April 12

Today’s Readings

AM Psalm 16, 17, Exod. 17:1-16; 1 Pet. 4:7-19; John 16:16-33

Today’s Reflection

In this morning's passage from Exodus, I notice the twin mandates of rest and trust sit alongside one another. What is it like for you to give yourself space to rest? I was recently with a friend who retired a year ago. She said it took her that long to feel comfortable reading a book in the middle of the day. Since exercising her guilt-free right to a midday read, she is more creative and has more energy and patience in the latter part of her day.

What is like for you to trust God?

The Israelites had only been free from the Egyptians for a month and the complaint meter was registering in the red zone. God promised to provide manna each day, they were not to hoard from one day to the next. They were to trust that what they needed would be provided by God. Because the seventh day was a mandated day of rest, they were to gather twice as much manna on the sixth day. This encounter with God through Moses is when the concept of sabbath was introduced to the Israelites. The the theology behind and importance of sabbath is further developed in both the book of Exodus and Deuteronomy.

I wonder why rest and trust are yoked in this way. What do you imagine? I am aware that our world is a busy, busy place. We are encouraged to "work hard" which is not in itself a bad thing; feeling like we are contributing to society is a vital component of a flourishing life. Additionally, when we experience life's challenges we are rewarded for "pushing through." Again, this is not necessarily a bad thing. Sometimes it is wise to work hard or push through; sometimes it is toxic. How do we know the difference? Through discernment. In the Ignatian tradition, "discernment involves prayer and weighing facts and feelings about several  good choices with ultimately leads to a choice about what is the best fir for an individual."

In a recent report published in the Human Resource Director, the United States ranks 196 of 197 countries for paid time off. Only Micronesians have less time off than we Americans. Clearly our culture privileges work over rest to an extreme degree. Perhaps this work, work, work, mode encourages an over-active sense of self-reliance." I work hard." "I can do it." As opposed to resting in and trusting in God to work through us. Might God be inviting us to a rhythm of rest and trust that brings us closer to God's vision for the world and less tied to our own?

It's just a thought--what do you think? As one of your priests, I would like to encourage you to take seriously God's command to sabbath rest--holy time for giving thanks for the gifts God has given us, for savoring, praying, laughing. Friday and Saturday the Birmingham Botanical Gardens hosts its annual plant sale. I plan to buy some beauities, grab the trowel, get my hands dirty and trust something new will grow. How will you rest and revel in your love of God?

Grace and Peace,

Mary Bea+

PS--Years ago I read Wayne Muller's Sabbath: Finding Rest, Renewal, and Delight In Our Busy Lives. This book literally changed my life and understanding of what it means to honor God's invitation to holy rest.



Question for Self-Reflection:

What is your experience of sabbath rest? How might you embrace resting in God's love, trusting all will be well, and giving thanks to God?

Living Stones - April 10

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 119:1-24; PM Psalm 12, 13, 14
Exod. 15:22-16:10; 1 Pet. 2:1-10; John 15:1-11 

Come to him, a living stone, though rejected by mortals yet chosen and precious in God’s sight, and like living stones, let yourselves be built into a spiritual house, to be a holy priesthood, to offer spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.  1 Peter 2:4-5

An odd fact about me is that I love rocks. When Sam and I went to Joshua Tree National Park a couple of years ago, I marveled at the huge rock faces. As we hiked through the desert terrain in 105-degree temperatures, I snapped photo after photo of rocks in the shade, stones in the sun, rocks with lizards on them. And so, at the mention of stones in the scriptures appointed for today in this second week following Easter, I am energized as I read from the apostle Peter’s first letter to early Christians in exile.

Peter hopes to inspire those receiving his letter to draw near to the steady, strong presence of the Son, for it will change them. Come to Jesus, he writes, the living stone. Stones have long been used as markers for memories, as indices of territory boundaries, as tools for processing and protection, and as images for strength and stability. Jesus is all of this and more, though many do not see him for who he is – precious in God’s sight.

In the light of the Easter season, I want to sit with this and savor this image of Jesus the living stone. All the alleluias we proclaim, all the trumpets resounding, and all the joy we feel is built upon the living stone of Jesus. He is the foundation from which all the festivities emanate. Our songs of resurrection and hope resonate through the living stone of Jesus. And when our voices falter with grief and our bodies are tired, it is Jesus the living stone who gives us a space to sit down, low to the ground. Low and not alone.

My friends, Peter knows that space. Peter who denied Jesus. Peter who questioned Jesus. Peter who kept living as a follower of Jesus. Peter, who is known as Cephas – the Rock. It is Peter who invites us to be enlivened by the living rock, so that we, too, will be like living stones, being built into a spiritual house, becoming a holy priesthood, offering gifts of love and dedication to God with the help of Jesus.

Peter writes this letter to help the new followers of Jesus understand what the rejected, yet resurrected Son is doing for them. The apostle knows that as God’s gift of Jesus is extended to us, we are called to do something about it. The life, death, and resurrection of Jesus is meant to change us. Living as followers of Jesus takes us down different paths and changes the ways we interact with people along the way. Peter is working to open our eyes, so that we see what God is doing to and for us in our lives.

As Christians, we are meant to be living, rolling stones. May this bring you Easter joy today.

Katherine+

Reflection and Challenge

What does the image of Jesus as the living stone kindle within you? What going on in your life really needs the steady foundation of Jesus right now?

April Fools: A Moveable Feast - April 8

Today’s Readings: AM: Psalm 85, 87; Isaiah 52:7-12; Hebrews 2:5-10 PM: Psalm 110:1-5(6-7), 132; Wisdom 9:1-12; John 1:9-14

Today is a weird day liturgically.  Typically, the Annunciation of our Lord (Luke 1:26-38) falls on March 25, exactly nine months before Christmas Day.  This year, March 25 was the Monday in Holy Week which means the date was skipped and moved to today, April 8.  In a spoof social media post on April 1, Archbishop Justin Welby shared that due to the shift from March 25, to April 8 (after celebrating the eight days of Easter), that “In order to preserve the connectedness between these liturgical feasts, therefore, the Nativity of Our Lord will be transferred to fall nine months after the Annunciation.  As a result, Christmas Day will be moved to January 8, 2025, and celebrated for the 12 days afterward.” 

I appreciate a good April Fool’s joke, although I thought that Birmingham Now declaring Brookwood Mall was to be converted to an Aquarium to be more exciting.  With April Fools being the day after Easter, a day where clergy rarely check emails or even get out of their pajamas, I feel like I missed out on April Fools.  So, I would like to declare April Fools to be a new movable feast to today and encourage all of the tomfoolery and shenanigans you can muster upon reading this reflection. 

In all seriousness, Easter is a season of hope, where people encounter Jesus Christ when they least expect it.  There is something about hearing news that is unbelievable or that we can’t imagine being true that comes with faith. Maybe it’s when a person who has broken your confidence more than you remember acts in a way that surprises you and shows growth and hope.  Maybe it’s when the person who you have failed to see eye to eye with, who stands counter to your nature, teaches you something about grace and mercy. Maybe it’s when a person chooses love and humility when there is no reason to offer, love and humility, a counter-action to the nature of our universe. 

To believe in Easter is to be open to what nature tells us we shouldn’t believe. And maybe, there is some wisdom in April Fools, an idea that infuses us with surprise and mystery, to tell us what we shouldn’t believe has a place in this universe. 

John+

Questions for Self-Reflection: What would surprise you most this day that you long to hear?

Tell The Story - April 5

Today’s Readings

Friday: AM Psalm 136; Exodus 13:1-2, 11-16; 1 Cor 15: 51-58;Luke 24:1-12

Today’s Reflection

Last month, in an Adult Sunday School Forum, parishioner Craig Cecil inspired many as he recalled his courageous story of transformation from addiction to new life in recovery. I do not remember every detail Craig's account. I do remember Craig battled his addiction for many years and bravely admitted it was a miracle he was still alive. I do know that today, my friend Craig is a triathlete champion and a coach. I do know that Craig credits Christ as the conduit for this transformation; and that witnessing Craig tell his miraculous story gave me hope. It gave me hope for all of the people I know who are struggling with the Holy Saturday darkness of food, alcohol, and shopping addictions. I have retold Craig's story to others whom I know are struggling.

Many of you know that less than two weeks ago my dear, sweet, beautiful, faithful mother died. I have recounted the details of her passing many times to those who would listen. In her obituary we mentioned that some of her last words which were, "Tell people I am not afraid." A part of my need to recount the story of mom's last days is in service to my grief--we need to tell our stories to help process them. And some of the retelling is to provide hope, because she was graced with a peaceful death confident in the hope of the resurrection. I know for many of us that is not what has happened with our loved ones. And if that is your story, I am so sorry and I pray for healing for you and trust and believe the healing has already happened for your loved one who is now held in the depths of God's love. I have found hope as I face the reality of my own mortality and that of every person I love, in the many beautiful words I have heard by the bedside of those who were transitioning from this life to the next. In the veil of that thin space, new life shimmers.

In today's Gospel reading, after Mary Magdalene, JoAnna, and Mary the Mother of James encounter the empty tomb with fear, they leave with joy and hope, and then they run to tell the resurrection story to the other disciples. Today, we are still telling that story and countless lives have been transformed in the telling and the hearing. Part of our mission as Easter people, as Christ-followers, Christ-bearers, is to tell our resurrection stories.

Grace and Peace,

Mary Bea+



Question for Self-Reflection:

What is/are your resurrection story(ies)? Are you in need of a resurrection story?

If so, who might you reach out to and ask them to share?

The Great Commission – April 4

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 146, 147; PM Psalm 148, 149
Exod. 13:3-10; 1 Cor. 15:41-50; Matt. 28:16-20 

Following the joyous celebration of Easter, the clergy and staff at Saint Stephen’s took a few days of rest and paused daily reflections earlier this week. We now will resume our posts and appreciate that you join us in study of Holy Scripture, prayer, and reflection.

The retelling of Jesus’ life and ministry through Matthew’s gospel ends with Jesus saying to his friends, “And remember, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” I am touched by the promise of faithfulness and closeness. The promise of presence is reassuring, when that one who remains is a source of stillness and healing and nourishing and unbounded love. That is what made letting go of Jesus so painful to his disciples.

Perhaps you have lost a dear one in your life – someone who radiated positive energy and light. If so, you know that chasm of longing that gapes open in your chest. The tears and the fears that swirl in a perpetual storm of loss. And you feel stuck. Or frozen. I have been there, and it is so hard. Jesus says to each of us, “Remember, I am with you always, to the end of the age.”

Jesus is with us. Jesus knows that loss is hard. He knows the deep feelings of disappointment, separation, and longing. And he knows that loss is not the last thing. You see, his message of proximity is more powerful than simply an “I will abide with you” promise. He tells them how to keep living in faithfulness.

Jesus appears to the eleven remaining disciples on the mountain and gives them what is called the Great Commission (Matthew 28:16-20). They all worship him, and Matthew tells us that some have doubts. Nevertheless, Jesus begins with a statement of power: “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.” If anyone else were to say those words, they would be met by cries of, “Blasphemer! Blasphemer!” We know of the works of Jesus of Nazareth and the holy truth he brought forth in his ministry.

With this opening, Jesus undergirds the heart of the Great Commission, issued to those who have deep faith and those who have little: “Go therefore and make disciples of all nations.” He commands them to go tell others of their experiences. Tell others what they have seen and heard and tasted and felt. The disciples are to do this through baptism and through teaching them to obey everything Jesus told them to do. Through water and word, there is new life. There is hope and renewal.

And Jesus closes with that promise of remaining near: “Remember, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” The resurrection hope delivered to us by Jesus is powerful because it is deeply woven into the threads of love and loss. It is powerful because it is a reminder that the pain of death is not futile. Resurrection hope transforms loss from devastation to a space of potential that is not yet understood or realized. And it is not simple, or meant to diminish the reality and gravity of grief.

Why else would Jesus make the promise to remain with us? Because he knew the work of talking of our loss through the lens of faith and belief in God is taxing. It is vulnerable. It is dangerous. It is incredibly hard. It empties us out…so that the salvific love of God will lift us up, building us with strength upon strength.

Resurrection hope is no easy task or immediate fix. Take courage in the light of Easter joy. You are not alone. Keep leaning on Jesus as you tell your stories of faith. And shine on, friends.

In the joy of the Risen Christ,

Katherine+

Reflection and Challenge

Reread the Great Commission slowly (Matthew 28:16-20). Listen for what words resonate with you. Listen for the ones that trip you up. Where do you feel God calling you to pay attention? How is the Easter hope of Jesus' resurrection real to you in these words?

Jesus finds himself hungry - March 25

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 51:1-18(19-20); PM Psalm 69:1-23; Lam. 1:1-2,6-12; 2 Cor. 1:1-7; Mark 11:12-25

I find myself drawn to the first line of today’s Gospel, “On the following day, when they came from Bethany, he was hungry.” This line immediately follows the passage we heard in church on Sunday where Jesus enters Jerusalem on what we call Palm Sunday.  In the previous verses, Jesus is greeted by swarms of people who have placed cloaks on the ground and cut branches of palms to be placed on the street. They are shouting “Hosanna in the highest!”

Almost anytime our church (and many others and especially in the south) gathers, food seems to be at the center of our gathering. Children rush from the doors on Sunday mornings to see if there are snacks in the gathering space. Our staff usually shares a meal or two each week. Meals on Wednesday nights, Sunday evenings or Newcomer gatherings are critical ways to engage our community in fellowship.  Potlucks seem to be synonymous with church gatherings. 

Maybe this is why I am surprised that Jesus is hungry. He has been surrounded by followers and I’m interested to know, where are the leftovers?  Obviously, this passage is about the fig tree and Jesus’ hunger is an entry point into the parable.  However, it also draws an awareness of a spiritual truth that I am beginning to discover.

That spiritual truth is worship begets more spiritual growth.  My hope for you is that this Holy Week, as you journey with your congregations in worship, the journey will only make you hungrier to know God and to love God.  My prayer is that it leads you to a deeper faith and desire to find growth opportunities, service opportunities, and opportunities to share the love of God.  May we be hungry too.

John+

Questions for Self-Reflection:  When have you felt hungry for the love of God?  How did you satisfy that hunger?

Open the Eyes of My Heart – March 13

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 101, 109:1-4(5-19)20-30; PM Psalm 119:121-144
Gen. 50:15-26; 1 Cor. 12:1-11; Mark 8:11-26

The apostle Paul wrote to the church in Corinth: “Therefore I want you to understand that no one speaking by the Spirit of God ever says ‘Let Jesus be cursed!’ and no one can say ‘Jesus is Lord’ except by the Holy Spirit.” (1 Cor. 12:3) He was ensuring that the new church knew what truth in God’s word looked like.

There are two big statements Paul rolled into a tight space. First, those speaking on behalf of God – with the power of the Holy Spirit – would not curse the Son. While we criticize ourselves and cut down one another, God does not curse God’s self. Jesus, in a dispute with the Pharisees, said, “Every kingdom divided against itself is laid waste, and no city or house divided against itself will stand.” (Matthew 12:25b) In his bid to become a U.S. Senator, Abraham Lincoln used those familiar words in his address to the Illinois Republican State Convention in Springfield on June 16, 1858. As he saw it, the division between people living in liberty and those subjected to slavery was no longer tenable. He anticipated the nation would become all for it or all against it.

Over and again, division is disorienting. We forget who we are and whose we are. That separation hangs over us like a sticky gauze of suffocation and sadness. We hurt one another. This is not a new story, is it? Thankfully, it is not the only narrative at play.

The second statement the apostle Paul offered what the Holy Spirit does do. When someone’s eyes are opened to see the truth of Jesus, the Divine is at work in them to see more clearly and understand more fully. It is not unlike the way that Jesus healed the blind man in Bethsaida (Mark 8:22-25). Jesus took the blind man by the hand and put saliva on his eyes and asked, “Can you see anything?” The man could see faintly, “I can see people, but they look like trees, walking.” So, Jesus laid his hands on the man’s eyes again. The man looked and his sight was clear. Jesus opened the eyes of that man – and opened the eyes of his heart to see everything clearly.

What are we to do with the division of the world? What are we to do with our blindness? God reminds us, over and again, to dare to trust the power of the Divine that binds us together in the midst of chaos and disruption. And when there are divides that are bridged, let us be bold enough to name that the power of the Holy Spirit is bringing fusion and connection. The healing grace of God is growing in those spaces where hunger is being banished, where injustice is being exposed, and vindictive words fall aside to prayer and kindness.

When we can tell these stories of hope and reconciliation, we are professing our faith. When we offer these experiences, the apostle Paul said that our words are fueled and our eyes are opened by God’s power moving within us. Our testimonies are God-filled.

As I wrap up this morning’s reflection, I leave you with the song that has been running through my mind as I wrote today, “Open the Eyes of My Heart”. The lyrics are simple and repetitive. They are an invocation to prepare for prayer, worship, and all that the day holds for you and me.

Open the eyes of my heart, Lord
I want to see you
I want to see you.

To see you high and lifted up
Shining in the light of your glory
Pour out your power and love
As we sing “Holy, Holy, Holy”.

Ask God to send the Holy Spirit to open your awareness to the Divine Presence this day. And may this day feel like the gift that it is.

My prayers are with you this Lent,

Katherine+

Reflection and Challenge

Before you pray this week, sit in silence and ask God to open the eyes of your heart so that you can see and understand the space of the Divine.