'Peoples shall stream to it' - October 7

Today’s Readings:  AM Psalm 140, 142; PM Psalm 141, 143:1-11(12); Micah 3:9-4:5; Acts 24:24-25:12; Luke 8:1-15

Today’s Reflection

In days to come the mountain of the Lord’s house shall be established as the highest of the mountains, and shall be raised up above the hills. Peoples shall stream to it, and many nations shall come and say: ‘Come, let us go up to the mountain of the Lord, to the house of the God of Jacob; that he may teach us his ways and that we may walk in his paths.’ For out of Zion shall go forth instruction, and the word of the Lord from Jerusalem.

He shall judge between many peoples, and shall arbitrate between strong nations far away; they shall beat their swords into ploughshares, and their spears into pruning-hooks; nation shall not lift up sword against nation, neither shall they learn war any more; but they shall all sit under their own vines and under their own fig trees, and no one shall make them afraid; for the mouth of the Lord of hosts has spoken.  —Micah 4: 1-4

We’ve experienced many things since the shooting, loss of life, and ensuing trauma in our Parish Hall on June 16. We’ve experienced the things you would expect yet can never really prepare for fully until you are in the midst of it—like great grief for the loss of those we loved, and real trauma (or woundedness) in our minds and spirits, which may also manifest in physical symptoms in our bodies. How we experience this grief and trauma varies from person to person, but this is something that takes much time and tender care to work through, and something we should not try to rush past in our desire for normalcy and healing.

Related to that, we have also experienced beautiful kindness and generosity of spirit—both from people and churches we already knew, and from people and churches we never knew before, or didn’t know as well. There’s something about going through something challenging and sad and lifechanging that has the potential to draw people closer to one another.

One thing that has been beautiful yet very unexpected are the many new people who have come to worship with us and join our community of Christ followers over these past four months. Today’s reading from Micah reminds me of this phenomenon:

“In days to come the mountain of the Lord’s house shall be established as the highest of the mountains, and shall be raised up above the hills. Peoples shall stream to it, and many nations shall come and say: ‘Come, let us go up to the mountain of the Lord, to the house of the God of Jacob; that he may teach us his ways and that we may walk in his paths.’”

People will stream to it. When people see the many ways in which the love and mercy and grace of God have surrounded and filled this community of Saint Stephen’s over these past four months, they are drawn to that light and warmth as we walk with one another in the love of Christ. But notice what Micah says after the part about people streaming to the house or mountain of the LORD: “that he may teach us his ways and that we may walk in his paths.” Yes, it’s important to come to the mountain to worship God. And when we come, we are to come with, to use an old-fashioned phrase, ‘a teachable spirit.’ We come to the mountain so that we may learn God’s ways and how we may more faithfully walk in his paths.

As we come together at Saint Stephen’s, streaming together to share in worship and community, whether we have been here for years, are returning after a time away, or are brand-new, let us spur one another on and commit ourselves to coming with hearts and minds and spirits who want God to teach us his ways that we may walk in his paths.

Becky+

Questions for Reflection

Recall a time when you were drawn to a community, a church, or a person that encouraged you in your life and faith. What was it about that community or church or person that drew you to them? Warmth? Openness? Honesty? Kindness? Gentleness? What was it that drew you to our church community? What keeps you connected with others in following God?

Daily Challenge

Anderson Cooper just started a new podcast called All There Is, inspired by his experience of grief over the course of losing his father at a young age (when Anderson was 10), his brother as a young man (when he was 21), and his mother Gloria more recently (three years ago). I encourage you to listen to all the episodes as we continue to grapple with our own experience of grief and trauma, but especially commend his conversation with comedian Stephen Colbert, who lost his father and two of his brothers when he was 10 years old as well. It’s not a funny conversation in any way, but it is a very honest and meaningful conversation that is well worth your time.

Healing - October 5, 2022

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 119:145-176; PM Psalm 128, 129, 130; Micah 2:1-13; Acts 23:23-35; Luke 7:18-35

This week I have been thinking about Jesus’ miraculous healings.

In a town called Nain, Jesus saw a widow mourning the death of her son. Jesus had compassion on her and said, “Do not weep.” Then, Jesus touched the cot that held the dead man, being borne from the town. Jesus said, “Young man, I say to you, rise!” That boy sat up and began to speak! The mother received her son, once more alive. (Luke 7:11-15)

When Jesus and his friends came to Bethsaida, a blind man was brought to him. Going to a space away, Jesus put saliva on the man’s eyes and laid hands upon him. He asked, “Can you see anything?” The man said, “I can see people, but they look like trees walking.” Jesus again laid hands upon the man’s eyes. The man looked around – his sight was restored and he could see clearly. (Mark 20:22-25)

In the gospel appointed for today, John the Baptizer’s friends are sent to Jesus, asking “Are you the one who is to come, or are we to wait for another?” He has just cured many maladies and cast out evil spirits. Jesus sends them back to the prophet, “Go and tell John what you have seen and heard: the blind receive their sight, the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, the poor have good news brought to them. And blessed is anyone who takes no offence at me.” (Luke 7:18-23)

Imagine what healing you would ask for from Jesus. What healing would Jesus bring to your family and neighbors? What healing are you praying for in our community and world?

I long for a quick healing from the grief generated by the tragedy this summer at Saint Stephen’s. If only there was a real and lasting, immediate resolution of discomfort and pain. If only the hurts and tears of those who are grieving could dry up in a snap.

It is not that easy. It is a long road. We are on that road together, and Jesus walks with us.

Katherine+

Questions for Reflection

When have you seen a remarkable healing? When you are hurting, how do you pray for God to be present with you?

Daily Challenge

Sit in prayer for 10 minutes. Pray to God for healing. Sit in the Divine Presence and listen for where healing with God will open and change you.

Finding Balance in our Inner Critic - October 3

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 106:1-18; PM Psalm 106:19-48; Hosea 14:1-9; Acts 22:30-23:11; Luke 6:39-49

Two extremes come to mind.  On one hand, the person who is hypercritical of all others, whom no one can live up to their expectations, and who is always finding fault in the other.  The other applies the same wisdom to their own lives being the worse inner critic causing a harshly negative view on the existence of one’s own life, and yet they can see others with profound optimism exacerbating the shame of their own life. Most of us probably know a few who live in the extremes, and maybe less charitably have found ourselves from time to time, pushed in one direction or another. 

Like most things in life, balance is key.  Today’s text is a parable from Luke where Jesus tells those gathered, “Why do you see the speck in your neighbor’s eye…when you do not see the log in your own eye?”  He is talking about the people who are overly critical of others.  And yet is it possible that we become so overwhelmed with the log in our own eye, that we fail to see our own capacity to share God’s love with this world?  Jesus does remind us in the parable that no good tree bears bad fruit and that a good person out of the good treasure of the heart produces good.  He isn’t offering an impossible standard, but a way and a real possibility for us all. 

I was struck by the words of Heather King in a reflection this week through the Center for Action and Contemplation who illustrates this point quite beautifully.  “We can try, at great personal sacrifice, to be perfectly righteous, a perfect friend, perfectly responsive, perfectly available, perfectly forgiving. But at the heart of our efforts must lie the knowledge that, by ourselves, we can do, heal, or correct nothing. The point is not to be perfect, but to “perfectly” leave Christ to do, heal, and correct in us what he wills.” 

We don’t have to be perfect, nor do our neighbors, friends, colleagues, or critics.  Be kind to yourself, and others too.  The answer is often found in the balance.  And so is Christ, there to transform our hearts and help the fruit of our works be good. 

John+ 

Questions for Self-Reflection:  When have you seen the strongest critic coming out in yourself?  What are the themes, reasons, and situations that cause this critic to emerge?  Is it warranted or is some self-reflection on today’s reading helpful?

Daily Challenge: Read the reflection from Heather King today.

A Level Place - September 30

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 102; PM Psalm 107:1-32; Hosea 10:1-15; Acts 21:37-22:16; Luke 6:12-26

Today’s Reflection

Now during those days he went out to the mountain to pray; and he spent the night in prayer to God. ... He came down with them and stood on a level place, with a great crowd of his disciples and a great multitude of people from all Judea, Jerusalem, and the coast of Tyre and Sidon. They had come to hear him and to be healed of their diseases; and those who were troubled with unclean spirits were cured. And all in the crowd were trying to touch him, for power came out from him and healed all of them. Luke 6: 12, 17-19

In today’s Gospel, Luke sets the scene for Jesus preaching a sermon that begins with a series of blessings that we now know as the Beatitudes. Just before this, Jesus had spent the night away from others, up on a mountain, praying to God all night. When day broke, he called together his disciples and chose the twelve who he would name apostles (Luke 6: 12-16). Then all of them came down from the mountain, and Jesus “stood on a level place” to speak to a “great multitude … who came to hear him and to be healed of their diseases.”

Jesus, rather than standing up above the crowd, has chosen to speak to them from their level. He who is divine and lifted up is choosing to come down to the crowd’s level, to speak from among them, which seems like an apt analogy for the message he has for them in this series of four blessings and four woes. One of the main, recurring themes in the Gospel of Luke, according to scholars, is something called “the great reversal.” This is what we hear Jesus preaching in this sermon. As one commentator explains, when Luke highlights Jesus’ message “in which the last are becoming first, the proud are being brought low and the humble are being exalted, Luke places great emphasis on God’s love for the poor, tax collectors, outcasts, sinners, women, Samaritans, and Gentiles.  … many of the episodes that appear only in Luke’s Gospel feature the welcome of the outcast” (ESV Study Bible).

Paul, in his letter to the Philippians, highlights key aspects of pastoral care, all of which work together to “make my [God’s] joy complete” as we seek to be “in full accord,” having “the same mind” and “the same love” with another. As I “look to the interests of others,” I am challenged to “let the same mind be in [me] as was in Christ Jesus,” who “emptied himself” as he “humbled himself.” The focus must be on the interests of the one seeking pastoral care. Second, it’s important to “stand on a level place” alongside those seeking care. In Luke 6, we see how Jesus: “came down with them and stood on a level place.” What a clear model we as pastoral care providers are given when God, incarnate as Jesus, chose to “stand on a level place” with those seeking his care. The bishop’s address to the ordinand states: “In all that you do, you are to nourish Christ’s people from the riches of his grace, and strengthen them to glorify God in this life and in the life to come.” (BCP 531). Throughout the ordination liturgy, we hear repeated this theme of encouraging and incubating the people in the circle of our care.

Richard Burridge, in his consideration of Jesus’ pastoral ministry observes that, “Luke depicts Jesus as almost constantly available, meeting people on the roadside or by the lake shore, in houses or synagogues—and always having time to give them, asking them what they want, and trying to meet their needs or heal their sufferings.” However, achieving this balance between seeming constant availability with being faithful to our other life commitments is crucial. While Burridge highlights Jesus’ accessibility, it is also important to notice that Jesus also took time away from his disciples and the many people seeking his teaching and healing, withdrawing to quiet places to pray alone. In my own life, I seek to balance time providing care for others with continuing to care for myself—whether that be through time alone in prayer, time spent outdoors, time with a counselor or spiritual director, time at home with my family, time connecting with friends, or time spent walking, or running, or reading, or just watching something I like on television. As they always tell us before an airline flight takes off, you must first put on your own oxygen mask before turning to place a mask on your child or someone else needing assistance.

Becky+

Questions for Reflection

When has someone come down to a level place to connect more meaningfully with you?

When have you had to make a conscious choice to withdraw to a quiet place so that you could better handle the demands placed upon you by your responsibilities to others?

Daily Challenge

Find at least half an hour today or this weekend to withdraw to a quiet place to renew your strength and reconnect with God.

Change is hard - September 28

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 101, 109:1-4(5-19)20-30; PM Psalm 119:121-144
Hosea 4:11-19; Acts 21:15-26; Luke 5:27-39

When I was growing up, we lived in an old two-story house built in the 1910s in Old Cloverdale, a neighborhood in Montgomery. The wooden floors were creaky and the ceilings were high. When it was time to come downstairs for breakfast or to get out the door for carpool, Mom would call up to us from the sunroom. Her voice would reverberate up the cast-iron spiral staircase and bounce down the hallway to summon my sisters and me. Virginia was generally the first to respond and get ready. Wayles would dawdle and make her way downstairs. Though the oldest, I was always the last to get ready. Wet-headed and shoes in my hands, I would run barefooted to the car. I was always the hardest to get to move on to the next thing. I resisted changing direction…even if that looked like going toward a good thing, like Eggo waffles.

In the gospel passage appointed for today, we hear stories of change. There is the inspiring story of Matthew the tax collector (here called Levi) and his story of answering Jesus’ call, “Follow me!” Others around the scene did not so readily drop everything and transform. The Pharisees and scribes – religious Temple folks who ascribed to many rules and jumped through many hoops of piety – muttered and grumbled to Jesus’ followers, asking “Why do you eat and drink with tax-collectors and sinners?”

We have record of how Jesus addressed this question…perhaps he overheard the complaints or got word of them from others. He answers, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick; I have come to call not the righteous but sinners to repentance.”

Jesus offered stories and guidance about change. “No one tears a piece from a new garment and sews it on an old garment; otherwise the new will be torn, and the piece from the new will not match the old.” In this and the parable about the wine and wineskins – and the wisdom of not mixing them - Jesus acknowledged that to start a new thing with old knowledge is probably the hardest conversion.

That is where prayer and support for one another is so important. To turn away from what we know and lean into trusting God more fully, we need a community to lift us, encourage us, love us. If you were on the Saint Stephen’s physical mailing list this spring, then you may have received a postcard recently, letting you know that you were prayed for this summer. When we planned the “Summer of Prayer” initiative to pray for each household, we had no idea of the big changes that would take place in our community. We had no inkling that tragedy would strike and we would be rocked to our core in loss. We had no clue. And yet, we prayed for each name on our rosters. Prayers can help us and those around us in the middle of changing times. Join me in praying for all of those affected by the changes and chances of this moment, for we are all in need of Jesus the Healer and Redeemer.

Katherine+

Questions for Reflection

What change is the hardest for you? How do members of your family respond to change?

How does your faith move and change?

Daily Challenge

Spend time in prayer today for the changes in your sphere. Pray for others who resist change. Ask God to open your ears and heart to be receptive as you are called to follow Jesus.

We all have something to learn - September 26

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 89:1-18; PM Psalm 89:19-52; Hosea 2:14-23; Acts 20:17-38; Luke 5:1-11

There is certainly a deeply embedded theological truth about the power of God in today’s Gospel message, but the story also provides some practical wisdom too.  Simon and some of the other disciples are gathered on the shore of the Sea of Galilee. They have been fishing all night and are washing their equipment before putting it away. They know about their craft and how to take care of what provides their source of living.  I’m guessing they are better at catching fish than most of us.  I certainly wouldn’t be giving out advice.

And so, they get into the boat with the ragged carpenter/itinerate preacher, and Jesus teaches them something about fishing.  Luke’s description of this miracle is “they caught so many fish that their nets were beginning to break.”  People from other boats had to come and help them rake in their catch. The story certainly points to another miracle and just how special Jesus is, helping the reader to understand why the disciples would drop everything to follow him.  But a very simple truth is also conveyed – we all have something to learn. 

Here are fishermen, masters of their craft, learning about fishing from a carpenter. It might be a miracle, but it exposes a fundamental truth about humanity – we all have something to learn.  And sometimes it can be enormously beneficial to broaden our horizons and to look for teachers and mentors who have nothing to do with our professions or don’t run in our social circles.  It’s about leading with a sense of humility because every person could be a teacher in some new way.

I have struggling last week with the profoundly difficult message in the Gospel proclaimed at most churches yesterday.  In Luke chapter 16, a rich man finds himself in eternal anguish begging to be relieved by the poor beggar he avoided his entire earthly life. The rich man calls out in his pain, “Send Lazarus to dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my tongue; for I am in agony in these flames (Luke 16:24b).”  The poor beggar who the rich man has failed to see all throughout his life, has something to offer him that will change his life.  In a more generous approach to this difficult passage, I’m wondering who I am missing in my life, and what they have to offer for my own healing, growth, and wellbeing in this world.

Without a doubt, our Gospel for today is about the power of God, but we also must be open to learning from those we may not have seen value before.  Who can teach us what it means to be a faithful person – a carpenter, a wandering nomad, a friend, a child, a coworker, the marginalized teenager, the radical? 

John+

Questions for Self-Reflection: When has someone taught you something and you weren’t expecting it?  Did you realize it then or much later?  What role does that person play in your life now?

Daily Challenge: Identify someone in your proximity that you want to learn from.  Pick someone younger than you to make it a challenge.

Matthew: The Gift of the Lord – September 21

Today’s Readings: AM: Psalm 119:41-64; Isaiah 8:11-20; Romans 10:1-15; PM: Psalm 19, 112; Job 28:12-28; Matthew 13:44-52

Today is the feast of Saint Matthew, remembered by the Church as an apostle and evangelist. He told the stories of Jesus. He shared the words of Jesus. His life did not start that way, though. He was raised amid the Roman establishment and served as a tax collector. In a world of “haves” and “have-nots”, he was in the former camp.

And then one day Jesus was walking and saw this tax collector sitting at a tax collection post, and said to him, "Follow me." And the man stood up and followed Him and became one of His twelve apostles. His name was different then, perhaps called Levi, if we go by what Mark and Luke wrote of his answering Jesus’ call. Matthew means “gift of the Lord” in Hebrew. Matthew’s ministry and dedication continue to be a gift of God to us, calling us into the life and legacy of Jesus.

That legacy is one that teaches us the message of God to the prophet Hosea: “I desire steadfast love and not sacrifice, the knowledge of God rather than burnt offerings.” (6:6) Jesus offers the point to ponder in this way to the Pharisees when they see Jesus eating with tax collectors and sinners: “Go and learn what this means, ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice.’ For I have come to call not the righteous but the sinners.” (Matthew 9:13)

God knows that we hunger and seek fulfilment. God knows that the void within us can be filled with the grace and joy of the Divine Presence. And yet, it is hard to get there. So, we continue to practice faithful living, through thoughts, words, and deeds. It is in the confession of sin that we pray to get realigned with God, naming the thoughts, words, and deeds that take us away from the Lord.

Jesus calls out, “Follow me!” – looking at all of humanity. There are moments when we are painfully aware that we need that salvific, amazing grace. Jesus is calling out to each of us. May Saint Matthew, the gift of the Lord, continue to inspire us to stand up to seek the kingdom of heaven. 

Katherine+

Questions for Self-Reflection: 

 When making a big, life-changing choice, do you jump in 100% - like quitting "cold turkey", or do you make a gradual change?

Who has invited you into a space of mercy and grace? How did you respond?

Daily Challenge: 

Tell the story of your calling as a Christian: Write down how you came to follow Jesus. Who was there? Where were you? What was life like for you at that time? What changes did you make

Necessary for Survival - September 19

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 80; PM Psalm 77, [79]; Esther 4:4-17 or Judith 7:1-7, 19-32; Acts 18:1-11; Luke (1:1-4),3:1-14

“For if you keep silence at such a time as this, relief and deliverance will rise for the Jews from another quarter, but you and your father’s family will perish. Who knows? Perhaps you have come to royal dignity for just such a time as this.”

These words are an awakening for Esther. Thrust into a position of leadership, her people face annihilation. It is one of the more challenging stories in Scripture. The Jewish people are in exile, and in this story are facing genocide due to the plot of the evil Haman. To become the queen, Esther has assimilated, undergoing the first known case of plastic surgery in the Bible (she disfigures her face to look like the people and hide her Jewish roots) and now she must claim her Jewish identity in order to save her people. The thrust of Esther is contained in this passage acknowledging that the threat of failing to acknowledge our identity is annihilation. 

A few weeks have passed since I watched my hometown engulfed in metaphorical flames. A niece of friends of mine murdered. Random shootings and murders posted on Facebook live blocks from my family moments before logging onto a Fantasy Football draft with friends in lockdown due to those same shootings. Anger boiling underneath the surface and words of fear muttered in my own home, overheard by scared children.  

A night or two passed, and I watched tens of thousands of people around the world light candles, lace up running shoes, and host prayer vigils, even here in Birmingham. A friend witnessed the same in Aspen, Colorado. There is always light and hope, even in the depths of despair. 

That is the Christian witness. We find hope in a man crucified on a cross because love has the power to overcome the cruelest and most heinous violence known in our existence. As I watched my own anger boil from the events of a few weeks past, Esther has timely wisdom. The threat of failing to acknowledge our identity is annihilation. As Christians, we cannot survive if we fail to see our capacity to love, rooted in God’s love for us, as our defining ethic for living. We must always be grounded in compassion, sacrifice, forgiveness, and love because that is what it means to follow Jesus. And if we do not reveal our identity, we cease to survive. I’d go as far as to say, we cease to be human, at least not what God intended for us. 

Our identity is not only how we want to be seen but is necessary for our survival. That identity that changes when we are Baptized is the sustaining source of our very lives. 

John+

Questions for Self-Reflection:  How does your identity as a Christian shape your life?  What practices are intentional as a result of your Christian identity?

Daily Challenge:  Esther is one of the books that is easy to read in one sitting.  If you have twenty minutes or so, read the book of Esther. 

'The waters have risen up to my neck' - September 16

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 69:1-23(24-30)31-38; PM Psalm 73; Esther 1:1-4,10-19 or Judith 4:1-15; Acts 17:1-15; John 12:36b-43

Today’s Reflection

This past Saturday, a friend and I drove down to Montgomery to visit the Legacy Museum and the National Memorial for Peace and Justice, which are part of the Equal Justice Initiative. I am embarrassed to say that it took me over two years living in Alabama, only an hour and a half away from Montgomery, to make the time to visit these two very significant places. It was on my mind to visit when I first moved here in 2020, but soon I got swept up into the busy-ness of my work and daily life and the hopes to make pilgrimage there kept being put off.

The Legacy Museum traces the history of people sold into slavery in West Africa, forced to make their way across the Atlantic shackled in the holds of ships in what historians call the Middle Passage, and then make their way onto dry land as enslaved people in South America, the Caribbean islands, and the United States. This history should be important to everyone, regardless of race, whether your ancestors were enslaved, slaveholders, or people with no seeming connection to it all. This history is especially important to me, whose family has lived in the South since the 1600s, because I see that whether my family were slaveholders or not (some were and weren’t), no one in the United States at that time was untouched or unaffected by the holding of other people in forced labor. This history is so important to me that much of the teaching and writing I did as a professor focused on understanding the continuing legacy of ‘the Peculiar Institution’ on our sense of regional identity and on how we get along with people across difference—racial, gender, socioeconomic, and otherwise—moving forward.

When you enter the museum space, you are oriented to follow a chronological path through the museum—and once you begin, you must keep moving through the heavy and painful history portrayed. There is no escape. There is no turning back. This seems apt in light of the fact that once people were swept up into this history and sent across the Atlantic as chattel slaves, there was no escape, no turning back—at least not without severe consequences. I don’t want to give too many of the details away in this reflection, as I feel it’s important for you to experience the museum and memorial for yourself. Today’s psalm reminds me of a powerful artistic installation, early on in the path through the museum, which I hope you will experience for yourself if you haven’t already.

As you enter the museum, you come into a room with large screens that envelope you in the waves of the Atlantic—you see them and you hear them, in all their vastness and power. You see screens on the side walls of the room that show the movement of enslaved people from West Africa across the Atlantic over the centuries of the slave trade, noticing the patterns of where the slaves were sent and how the flow of people increased over time.

From there you walk into a room that is also a depiction of the ocean—but in this next room, you are on the beach, where the waves have swept in people from across the sea. On each side of the walkway are many busts of individuals meant to depict enslaved people. You only see from the neck up, and they are down at floor level, with the lights and the setting evoking hundreds of people who are up to their necks in the water and the sand:

Save me, O God,
for the waters have risen up to my neck.
I am sinking in deep mire,
and there is no firm ground for my feet.
I have come into deep waters,
and the torrent washes over me.
I have grown weary with my crying;
my throat is inflamed;
my eyes have failed from looking for my God. —Psalm 69: 1-4

As you continue through the museum, you learn more—an overwhelming amount of information and images—about the history of African Americans and the many struggles they faced through slavery, Reconstruction, Jim Crow segregation, and with continued discrimination and race-based violence and inequities to this day. But you also learn about the ways that, in the face of all this suffering and injustice, many have held on tightly to their great faith in God. How in the face of such suffering and trauma, ongoing over lifetimes and generations of people, can there also be such undying faith in God? This is one of the many wonderings I held in my heart and mind as I left the Legacy Museum last Saturday.

Becky+

Questions for Reflection

When have you felt imprisoned by something? When have you seen no way out of suffering? How have you held onto hope when all around you seemed hopeless?

Daily Challenge

Learn more about the work of the Equal Justice Initiative and consider visiting the Legacy Museum and National Memorial for Peace and Justice in Montgomery.

Confess. Proclaim. Share. – September 14

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 72; PM Psalm 119:73-96; Job 42:1-17; Acts 16:16-24; John 12:20-26

This past Sunday, there was a baptism at the 11:15am service. A vocal and engaging infant was washed in the waters of baptism and became the newest member in the Christian church at that moment. Chrism (blessed oil) was put on her head in the sign of a cross, a symbol that she is forever sealed by the Holy Spirit in baptism and marked as Christ’s own forever. In unison the congregation welcomed Ware and offered words of wisdom to her: “We receive you into the household of God. Confess the faith of Christ crucified, proclaim his resurrection, and share with us in his eternal priesthood.”

Today, that congregational response to the newly baptized person resonates with me in a refreshed tone. There is acknowledgement of the entrance into this family of the Lord. And then, together the people say three declarative statements about what it means to be a Christian.

Confess the faith of Christ crucified. In these words, we remind others and challenge ourselves to believe in and talk about our faith in Jesus. And it is more complicated than that. It’s not just a faith based on Jesus the victor and king. It is a faith of humility – Christ crucified. We say those words to remind ourselves that there is a great cost paid by God’s Son. There is a cost in following Jesus and serving God through him. We are called to own boldly the faith we have in Jesus the Christ, the one long-promised, and to remember Jesus’ words in John 12:25 when he said, “Those who love their life will lose it, and those who hate their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.” We are challenged to have the faith of Jesus, too. This is a goal that we keep stretching toward, and not one that we attain without God’s grace lifting us and meeting us right where we are.

Proclaim his resurrection. In these words, we encourage one another to talk about the resurrection of Jesus…that death did not and cannot stop the power of God through Jesus. In proclamation, we retell the story to all who will listen, encouraging and declaring Jesus the victor over pain and death. After all, Jesus is the one who rose from the grave and walked among the people, revealing to them the wounds in his hands and side. He met his disciples on the beach and had a breakfast picnic with them. He comforted his grieving friend Mary Magdalene and told her not to hold on to him too tightly, for he had not yet ascended to his Father in heaven. Jesus revealed to the people of his day, and to us, wonder upon wonder…and we get to keep telling those stories of miraculous awe, that are far beyond parlor tricks and spirited divination.

Share with us in his eternal priesthood. This closing statement is a powerful one – an invitation to the newly baptized. Join together with the wide and loving Christian family. Tell us more about yourself, and we will tell you about our own stories. And we gather in this time of sharing, centered around the never-ending guidance of Jesus the priest and pastor…the leader who will not disappear, move on, get sick, or make missteps. Being a Christian in the Episcopal Church means that the people constitute the Body of Christ…and in baptism, each of us joins the priesthood of all believers. We all are invited and empowered to serve Jesus, made worthy through God’s amazing grace.

The sacrament of baptism is a beautiful entrance rite into the household of God. The promises and prayers we make are big ones, and we get to reaffirm them when others are baptized, too. If you want to know more about baptism, or would like for your child or grandchild to be baptized, I will be teaching a class at Saint Stephen’s on Sunday, September 25 at 10:15am, preparing people and answering questions you have.

Katherine+

Questions for Reflection

When you hear this congregational response after baptism, what resonates with you?

What is the crescendo for you in a service of baptism?

Daily Challenge

Ponder what it means to you to make the sign of the cross. Would you like to read more about this act of personal piety? Here is a link to a lengthy, fascinating piece on Holy Cross Day and the history of the cross: http://satucket.com/lectionary/Holy_Cross.htm.

Our Sanitized Lens - September 12

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 56, 57, [58]; PM Psalm 64, 65; Job 40:1-24; Acts 15:36-16:5; John 11:55-12:8

This past week, I launched my reading group again after a three-month summer hiatus.  We read a variety of books, usually nonfiction, but not always, and ranging on any number of unusual topics. Not all are religious and yet we trust God to be a part of the conversation and help us to discern how we can see God more deeply in the beauty of the world. 

I selected our September Book from a list published by Time Magazine, a collection of poetry by critically acclaimed author Ocean Vuong titled Time is a Mother. The paragraph describing the collection and the litany of acclaimed authors and sources recommending it led me to believe it would be the perfect choice to kick off our fall series.  Maybe it is. Maybe it isn’t.  

As I started to work through the first poems, I wrote my class to warn them of the haunting, vivid, and visceral language that I found so shocking.  I told another that I wouldn’t have selected this collection if I had read it before, which is also true. It’s painful, dark, and yet also beautiful and touching.  As I slowly read each poem, I am being forced to wrestle with powerful images that I’d rather not see.

And yet, as I read the Scriptures appointed for this morning, I am struck that the setting of the story is when the Jewish people are making their way to Jerusalem before the Passover to purify themselves, an annual tradition of sorts.  Their reason is the focus on cleanliness and being both physically and spiritually clean, an attribute of how they understand holiness and purity.  And I am left wondering if my own uncomfortableness with such shocking and vivid imagery that captures the pain and loss of someone’s very human experience is an attempt to see the world through a sanitized lens, my own focus on holiness and purity. 

The world is painful and broken.  Saint Stephen’s likely understands this as much as any community could.  I think we are tempted to come to church sometimes to escape this reality, to find beauty and peace that stands in stark contrast to the pain and agony of the world.  The reality of God’s love breaking into this world is not the absence of grief, pain, trauma, or agony, but taking the reality of the world and making it holy.  We can’t purify ourselves, and we don’t need to, because Christ has redeemed the world. 

The world is complex.   This is the world that Christ breaks into to make holy and redeem, and not a sanitized version of what we want to see.  Maybe this understanding of the power of Christ can let us sit with the pain and discomfort of the world in new ways.

Faithfully,

John+

Questions for Self-Reflection:  What stories of the world are painful for you to sit with?  How can God help you to see that reality with new eyes? 

Daily Challenge:  Read a piece of poetry.  I suggest the Poetry Foundation as a good source. 

God Saved the Queen - September 9

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 40, 54; PM Psalm 51; Job 29:1,31:24-40; Acts 15:12-21; John 11:30-44

Today’s Reflection

In the roll of the book it is written concerning me:
‘I love to do your will, O my God;
your law is deep in my heart.’”
I proclaimed righteousness in the great congregation;
behold, I did not restrain my lips;
and that, O Lord, you know.
Your righteousness have I not hidden in my heart;
I have spoken of your faithfulness and your deliverance;
I have not concealed your love and faithfulness from the great congregation.

You are the Lord;
do not withhold your compassion from me;
let your love and your faithfulness keep me safe for ever.

Psalm 40: 9-12

Yesterday, news began to spread around the world that the earthly life of Queen Elizabeth II of Great Britain and Northern Ireland had come to a close. She was at Balmoral, her retreat in Scotland, surrounded by all four of her children, and it is said that she died peacefully. As I was driving from Saint Stephen’s across town to do a home communion visit, I heard the news as it was announced on BBC Radio 4. As I arrived at our parishioners’ home, I found that they, too, were watching the news coverage on their television. We remembered Elizabeth in our prayers as we shared communion together.

Why do we Americans care about the life and death of a British monarch? Didn’t we break away to form the United States because we don’t want to be ruled by one? That is true of our nation, and also true as the Church of England parishes in the English colonies decided to break away to become our own church, the Episcopal Church—complete with a dramatic saga of sending men to Scotland to be ordained by their Scottish Episcopal bishops instead of Church of England ones.

Though our forebears made a conscious decision to create a new nation and a new church separate from those established in England, our forebears in the Episcopal faith very much wanted to continue on in the Anglican tradition of the Book of Common Prayers and all that goes with that. While our American Book of Common Prayer excludes prayers for the monarch, we do recognize that we are a part of a worldwide Anglican Communion and we are in communion with the Archbishop of Canterbury, who is appointed by the Head of the Church of England—who for 70 years, until yesterday, was Queen Elizabeth II.

As I read Psalm 40 this morning, with Elizabeth on my mind, I reflected on her roles as daughter, mother, sister, wife, and monarch, and how her responsibilities to uphold the United Kingdom and the Church of England sometimes complicated and added pressure in how she lived into her more personal roles. But we know that Elizabeth relied on her deep faith in Christ as she navigated her very distinctive role in the life of her family, her nation, and the world: “In the roll of the book it is written concerning me: ‘I love to do your will, O my God; your law is deep in my heart.’” The people of her nation and the Commonwealth are a “great congregation” like the one of which the Psalmist sings, and Elizabeth II was committed to living out a life of faith in Christ before the eyes of this great congregation.

Archbishop of Canterbury Justin Welby, recalling his last visit with the Queen in June, said this:

“I came away thinking, ‘There is someone who has no fear of death, has hope in the future, knows the rock on which she stands.’” He said that their final conversation had included “a little bit of gossip” and “some very wise words.” “You felt that history was in front of you, but it was history with those piercingly blue eyes twinkling, that extraordinary smile, and the relishing of a quick, dry comment.”

I’ve heard it said that each time the people of Great Britain have sung “God Save the Queen,” it could be thought of as the people praying that God would keep their monarch under his care, protecting her and causing her to flourish. As we look back on Elizabeth’s 96 years of life and 70 years as Queen, we can see clearly how God answered those many prayers to save their queen. And now we pray for the repose her soul, that God’s light may perpetually shine on her, that her memory may be a blessing, and that those who mourn and are entering a great time of transition will be comforted and granted God’s peace.

Becky+

A Collect for Queen Elizabeth II from the Church of England

O God, the maker and redeemer of all mankind, grant us, with thy

servant Queen Elizabeth and all the faithful departed, the sure

benefits of thy Son’s saving passion and glorious resurrection; that in the

last day, when all things are gathered up in Christ, we may with them

enjoy the fullness of thy promises; through Jesus Christ thy Son our Lord,

who liveth and reigneth with thee, in the unity of the Holy Ghost, one

God, world without end. Amen.

Stay curious - September 7

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 119:49-72; PM Psalm 49, [53]; Job 29:1,30:1-2,16-31; Acts 14:19-28; John 11:1-16

Thomas, who was called the Twin,* said to his fellow-disciples, ‘Let us also go, that we may die with him.’

A lifelong friend’s mother died last week. And today I preach at the funeral, giving thanks to God for Diane’s life and for the hope given to us in Jesus’ defeat of death. The family has asked that a portion of John 14 be read. In these words of comfort and hope, we hear the honest inquiry of Thomas, “Lord, we do not know where you are going. How can we know the way?” As the curious apostle appeals for more details and assurance, Jesus takes the opportunity to teach and reveal something transformative about himself: “I am the way, and the truth, and the life.” Thomas helped extract a bit more of a roadmap of faithfulness with Jesus.

In today’s text from the Gospel of John, we hear of Lazarus’ experience of illness and death, followed by Jesus’ miraculous awakening of his friend from the grasp of death. Jesus explains to his friends that Lazarus really was dead and not just asleep. Furthermore, the Messiah hopes that arousing his friend stirred the disciples to believe in the powers of Jesus, and that he is the Son of God. If Jesus’ abilities are revealed in Lazarus, what is the next adventure? Thomas is fully on board to find out, saying to the group, “Let us also go, that we may die with him.”

Some may speak ill of Thomas the Apostle, the Twin, the Doubter. I, however, find his impulsive witness one of refreshing, childlike honesty. He opens the minds and hearts of those around him through curiosity. Jesus welcomes his questions.

Friends, we face hard things around us – death, pain, fears, illness, feelings of inadequacy, and the like…and yet, St. Thomas the Twin invites us to stay forthright and proximate, faithful and ever-seeking Jesus.

Katherine+

Questions for Reflection

Who are the people who welcome your questions the most? How does it feel to be around them? Whose questions do you always welcome?

Daily Challenge

Get out one unlined piece of paper. Set a timer and spend three minutes writing any and all questions you want to ask Jesus. No question is too big or too silly or too impertinent. Do not stop writing. Once the time ends, put down the pen and close your eyes. Sit in silence for one minute, giving yourself into God’s presence. Feel God’s love and welcome. If you feel moved to journal following this time of reflection, write down the word or phrases that stand out.

‘My times are in your hand’ - September 2

Today’s Readings

AM Psalm 31; PM Psalm 35; Job 19:1-7,14-27; Acts 13:13-25; John 9:18-41

Today’s Reflection

But as for me, I have trusted in you, O Lord.
I have said, “You are my God.
My times are in your hand;
rescue me from the hand of my enemies,
and from those who persecute me.
Make your face to shine upon your servant,
and in your loving-kindness save me.” —Psalm 31: 14-16

In the Psalm appointed for this morning, Psalm 31, we hear the Psalmist alternating between naming the ways in which God has provided protection and strength with naming the ways in which the psalmist is continuing to experience troubles of many kinds. This psalm gives us a realistic view of what the life of faith is like. We find ourselves being pulled back and forth between moments of great sureness that God is there for us, loves us, protects us, and cares for us: “Be my strong rock, a castle to keep me safe, for you are my crag and my stronghold; for the sake of your Name, lead me and guide me” (31:3). And then we also feel, maybe even on the same day, moments of feeling utterly overwhelmed by life’s demands, besieged by people who would seek to bring us down, and alone amidst these challenges and pressures: “Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I am in trouble; my eye is consumed with sorrow, and also my throat and my belly. For my life is wasted with grief, and my years with sighing; my strength fails me because of affliction, and my bones are consumed” (31:9-10).

This is what I find most comforting about the psalms, though, this realistic depiction of what the life of faith is like—and the fact that the psalmist has this honesty in his rapport with the God to whom these psalms are addressed. As described in Psalm 31, God is not put off by the psalmist’s lamenting and venting: “Yet I said in my alarm, ‘I have been cut off from the sight of your eyes.’ Nevertheless, you heard the sound of my entreaty when I cried out to you” (31:22). In a moment of stress, the psalmist accused God of not seeing him, of not wanting to see him. And then we hear a beautiful word that changes everything: Nevertheless. I didn’t think you were there for me, God. Nevertheless, you heard me. You were still there listening for me, even when I just accused you of abandoning me in my time of need.

 I was reading an essay by Sarah Woodard on the Mockingbird blog, in which she questions that paradigm of Christian piety, the “quiet time” with God. Rather, Woodard, like the psalmist, is encouraging us to take a more honest, realistic approach in our time of prayer:

Lamott eloquently stated that “prayer is taking a chance that against all odds and past history, we are loved and chosen, and do not have to get it together before we show up.” We can even show up angry — Lamott assures us that “God can handle honesty, and prayer begins an honest conversation.” Even if your prayer is “I don’t like You at all right now,” God can handle it, and it may be the most honest prayer you’ve prayed in a while.

We can show up disheveled, disorderly, and maybe even disinterested, and God will meet us there. God can meet us at the traffic line as we pray for patience for the old woman driving slower than the speed limit in front of us, or in the stillness of early morning light. He is there when we are wiping runny noses, walking dogs, and trying to keep our sanity while cooped up in quarantine. He will accept our own words or someone else’s, our “quiet time” and our “loud time.” 

As we continue through challenging times as a society, as a church, and as individuals, frustrated that life just isn’t getting back to normal on the timeline we had hoped that it would, frustrated that there are not enough hours in the day to keep working at the same level of perfection that we normally expect from ourselves (feel free to insert your own list of frustrations and disappointments here), it’s important to remember that God already knows all about it. God knows we are frustrated at times and pulled in too many directions and wondering when things will ever get better. Nevertheless, God still hears us, and wants to keep hearing from us. Even when we aren’t feeling extra hopeful and positive—and maybe especially then.

—Becky+

Questions for Reflection

How honest do you feel you can be in prayer with God?

Do you ever feel like you must be more positive in prayer than you actually feel?

What would it be like to tell God you feel like God is not hearing you?

Daily Challenge

Take time, whether in writing or out loud or in silence, to be honest with God about something you have been holding back about in your prayer life.

Flower of hope in the trauma – August 31

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 38, PM Psalm 119:25-48; Job 12:1,14:1-22; Acts 12:18-25; John 8:47-59

On Sunday morning during the 9 o’clock service, I looked up at the cross that is built into the back wall of our nave behind the altar. Upon the rough surface of the slate grey beams, just beneath the ninety-degree angles created by their intersection, I saw something that caught my eye. It was a tiny white and green flower, waving in the circulation of air. Somehow this remnant of a fabulous floral display of limelight hydrangeas adorned and danced upon the cross. And it was beautiful.

As the Rev. David Peters, our guest preacher this past weekend, talked of Jesus suspended on the cross between heaven and earth, a beacon of hope for us as we weather times of trauma and devastating loss. I thought of that tiny flower. That reminder that hope springs eternal. That even on the darkest days, God brings beauty and assurance. Jesus was and is and will be a reminder and guide for us through the rough and turbulent terrain around us, because he has been in trauma and pain.

Many years before Jesus came to live among humans, we find Job in a piece of the text appointed for today. Job shares a hard and desperate account of his physical, spiritual, and emotional wounds. He rails against God and the pain of his own human existence. Mortals, he says, are “few of days and full of trouble”. If life is so fleeting like a shadow that barely exists, can God just look away and allow humans to enjoy a day or two? Unlike trees who can sprout new growth after being leveled or damaged, Job asks what happens to humans? Water is in a cycle of moving and drying up, but what of mortals? What is the purpose of all of this, Job inquires. He sees the movements of mountains crumbling and waters flowing to their next resting places. Job says, “so you destroy the hope of mortals. You prevail for ever against them, and they pass away; you change their countenance, and send them away.” (14:19b-20)

Job is living in a hard space with much trauma. He feels utterly alone and without hope. His lament is one that perhaps many of you have pondered…to feel so separated from the light of healing and grace from God. Like trauma, Job’s journey does not resolve quickly. And so, we cling to the hope of Jesus, to God’s faithfulness to us in the darkest of days, and gather together at the Table of our Lord to be nourished. You may be in turmoil today. I pray that you can open your eyes to the tiny flowers of encouragement and hope that quietly reveal themselves to you through the breath of the Holy Spirit. And remember two things; God loves you and you are never alone.

Katherine+

Questions for Self-Reflection: 

Where have you found to be a surprising place of encouragement and hope? Have you shared details of this place with others? How often do you return there, physically or in your memory?

Daily Challenge: 

Set aside about 20 minutes of quiet. Before beginning, get in a place of comfort, or bring an item that brings hope to you. Sit with God, just as you are. Reflect, pray, breathe. And when 20 minutes are finished, give thanks - even if that thank you is that your body was nourished with oxygen in those moments.

The Flag and God - August 29

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 25; PM Psalm 9, 15; Job 12:1-6,13-25; Acts 11:19-30; John 8:21-32

Can you imagine being physically scattered because of your faith?  I am guessing so much more is wrapped up in this story when we realize, a more historical account in the Book of Acts that is a precursor for much of history, where religious groups have had to find new places to live, but it stands out today.  “Now those who were scattered because of the persecution that took place over Stephen.”  Maybe I am paying intention because of the connection to our own Saint that this church is named, and my ears are conditioned these days a little differently.

Most of what I have experienced in my life is people who actively seek out a faith community or actively leave a community.  Often it can be because of how one’s own faith lines up with the values of a community or a change in an understanding of God and who is included or excluded from community.  But the decision to stay or leave is decided by the individual and it is a choice of free will. 

A few weeks ago we moved both the Episcopal flag and American flag from the sanctuary to the Narthex during a wedding.  Historically, flags have been put up during weddings, but instead of putting them up, they were moved to the Narthex.  It might have been accidental, but I have left them there.  Now, when one enters the church, the American flag is what is seen.  I’ve been thinking about how appropriate this is.  Our American flag is a secular symbol, and for most of us, it is the most important secular symbol we encounter.  Secular symbols don’t make sense in a sanctuary.  America is not the kingdom of God. 

But it is our American freedom that allows us to enter the nave and worship however we would like.  That is a remarkably precious gift that is not afforded to everyone.  We don’t fear what those early Christians feared who were physically separated because of their faith, something that still happens in different parts of the world. 

For the time being, I’d like to keep the flags where they are.  And I’m hoping that for those of you who worship physically in the building, when you walk into the nave, you will be reminded of your freedom to do so, and how the story we read today is not our reality.  Thanks be to God.

John+

Questions for Self-Reflection:  What is the relationship of the flag to your Christian faith? 

Daily Challenge:  Find a place in the world (today) where people have had to move due to religious persecution.  Spend some time reading about this place and praying for people there.

'It's about God' - August 26

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 16, 17; PM Psalm 22; Job 9:1-15,32-35; Acts 10:34-48; John 7:37-52

Today’s Reflection

“‘He commanded us to preach to the people and to testify that he is the one ordained by God as judge of the living and the dead. All the prophets testify about him that everyone who believes in him receives forgiveness of sins through his name.’ While Peter was still speaking, the Holy Spirit fell upon all who heard the word.”  Acts 10: 42-44

“On the last day of the festival, the great day, while Jesus was standing there, he cried out, ‘Let anyone who is thirsty come to me, and let the one who believes in me drink. As the scripture has said, “Out of the believer’s heart shall flow rivers of living water.”’ Now he said this about the Spirit, which believers in him were to receive; for as yet there was no Spirit, because Jesus was not yet glorified. When they heard these words, some in the crowd said, ‘This is really the prophet.’”  John 7: 37-40

On our end-of-summer road trip, our last stop was Raleigh-Durham, North Carolina. We went to North Carolina to see a good friend of mine from college, who works as a software engineer in the Research Triangle. While we were there, we also spent some time at Duke University because I cannot stay away from a beautiful college campus. I brought a couple books back amongst my souvenirs—the two I picked from the campus bookstore are both by Will Willimon, who for 20 years was Dean of Duke Chapel before coming here to Alabama, where he served as a bishop in the United Methodist Church.

Willimon is a gifted preacher who for many years has taught courses and written books on preaching. I’ve been trying to read a bit each day from one of the books, Preaching Master Class: Lessons from Will Willimon’s Five-Minute Preaching Workshop. Each chapter is just two or three pages, truly a five-minute dive into some of his experiences and observations over the years as a preacher and as a teacher of preachers.

Yesterday I read a chapter titled “It’s about God.” On one level, this should be obvious: When we write or plan a sermon, we should be orienting ourselves toward God, we should be opening ourselves to proclaiming what God would have us to proclaim. When we preach, we should be pointing our hearers toward God. And yet, in contemporary preaching, there are pressures both from outside and inside to keep things safe. As Willimon argues,

As I consider many of the sermons that I hear and many of the sermons that I preach, I hear a decidedly a-theistic tendency. Many sermons are essentially ‘self-help.’ … I hear sermons that are little different from the advice one could receive from any self-help book. I fear that these preachers have allowed the seekers and their limitations to determine the content of the message. We Americans are a ‘do-it yourself’ society, a people who generally believe that, if our lives are going to be better, then it is mainly left up to us to improve them. We no longer want salvation, or conversion: we want self-improvement. Jesus becomes another helpful technique, among many other techniques, for getting what I want (97).

Too much talk about God (or Jesus or the Holy Spirit, or salvation or sin, or so many other things), and we might make some people feel uncomfortable. But we want people to stick around. We want people to keep coming back. And so, sometimes, we preachers may be tempted to play it safe. To say only what is reassuring. Comfortable words. Words that won’t offend. Words less likely to challenge.

But look at today’s Gospel passage from John and the New Testament passage from Acts. Jesus’ preaching did not make people comfortable. Peter’s preaching did not make people comfortable. Jesus and Peter challenged people in their preaching. They challenged people because always, always, always they were faithful in orienting their audiences to be turning toward God—and finding their true salvation and their true identities not in the love of self but in the unending, unquenchable love of God.

In the words of Will Willimon, “Christians don’t believe in self-help. We believe that we cannot help ourselves, exclusively by ourselves. We need a God who saves, who reaches in, and intrudes and acts to do for us that which we cannot do for ourselves” (98). Thanks be to God.

Becky+

Questions for Reflection

When have you heard a sermon that challenged you? What did you feel challenged to do or to reconsider after hearing that sermon?

Is it possible to be at once challenged and comforted when the Gospel is preached?

Daily Challenge

When you have heard a sermon that you wanted to listen to again or share with others, what was it about that sermon that resonated so strongly with you?

How might you conceive of your own actions and words as a sermon that you are preaching through your daily life?

Love, delight, and the law - August 24

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 119:1-24; PM Psalm 12, 13, 14; Job 6:1,7:1-21; Acts 10:1-16; John 7:1-13

On this Wednesday school-day morning, the portion of Psalm 119 slated for today is perfectly suited. Now, I offer the reminder that I am a morning person; it does not take two cups of coffee and thirty minutes of silence to get me ready to take on the pressures of the day. I get out of bed and am (usually) ready to engage.

Psalm 119 begins in a way that I woke up this morning – happy and ready to follow the rules of God. The psalmist sings that those who observe the decrees of God are fulfilled, for they are seeking satisfaction to their core from the Lord alone. There is obedience and gratitude within my steadfast spirit. Getting ready for the day, there is a longing to follow the divine expectations laid out before all God’s people, “With my whole heart I seek you; let me not stray from your commandments.” (v. 10) The words of promise and devotion are beautiful, faithful, and focused:

I treasure your promise in my heart,
that I may not sin against you.

Blessed are you, O Lord;
instruct me in your statutes.

With my lips will I recite
all the judgments of your mouth.

I have taken greater delight in the way of your decrees
than in all manner of riches.

I will meditate on your commandments
and give attention to your ways.
My delight is in your statutes;
I will not forget your word. (v. 11-16)

The further I get from the prayerful start to the day, the more chaotic and isolated I can feel. Likewise, by verse 17, there is a shift. No longer with words of hopeful promise ahead, the psalmist looks only in the present and pleads to God to “deal bountifully” and “open my eyes”. The reality and hard parts of the day are here.

I am a stranger here on earth;
do not hide your commandments from me.

My soul is consumed at all times
with longing for your judgments.

You have rebuked the insolent;
cursed are they who stray from your commandments!

Turn from me shame and rebuke,
for I have kept your decrees. (v. 19-22)

The psalmist is really struggling. I notice the quick shift from delight in the law of Yahweh, to fear that the commandments – one of the few lasting, permanent signs of communication between God and the people of early Israel – might be taken away and obscured from sight. Sometimes the trajectory of my day pivots, swinging in a way that is askew to the way I woke up.

In this psalm, I see a surprising intermingling between law and emotion. In the dualistic paradigm of American culture, I do not expect these two to be interwoven, and yet, the ancient lyricist created this work of expressing how the structure of God – the hopefulness of our Lord – can be internalized and digested to nourish the faithful who seek to follow God.

Upon prayerful reflection, we also can proclaim heartily that the Lord’s decrees are our delight. These words, which give shape to what it means to be living faithfully with God and for God, truly become our counselors at all times, day or night.

Katherine+

Questions for Self-Reflection: 

 When you think of laws and commandments, what images come to mind? And how to God’s laws differ from the laws of our land?

Do you lead first with rules, or desires, or something wholly different?

Daily Challenge: 

Reread the rules we know as the Ten Commandments. Meditate on them (as we hear in Psalm 119:23). What words or phrases stand out? Spend five minutes (or more) journaling about how they resonate with you today.

Become what you Receive - August 22

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 1, 2, 3; PM Psalm 4, 7; Job 4:1,5:1-11,17-21,26-27; Acts 9:19b-31; John 6:52-59

In a few weeks, I will once again make my way to Cambridge, Massachusetts to spend four days in retreat at the monastery run by the brothers of the Society of Saint John the Evangelist (SSJE).  These men have given their whole lives to living the Gospel of Jesus Christ and they make their grounds available throughout the year for people to come and worship with them in the ancient monastic traditions.  I am eager to sit in the holy quiet of the sacred space and pray for Saint Stephen’s and rest in God’s loving embrace.

I was there in 2019 for retreat and had planned a retreat in 2020 that was canceled due to the pandemic.  When I was visiting in 2019, I heard these words for the first time, “Behold what we are: May we become what we receive.” These words were the words of invitation to communion.  The priest offered, “Behold what we are” and the congregation responded, “May we become what receive.” 

What a beautiful image for the sacred meal of communion.  We reflect on our human nature and our capacity as humans and yet we pray to become the sacred gift that we so deeply desire and with the assumption that the meal actually transforms our very lives.  Today’s Gospel lesson from John is a dialogue of Jesus telling others that for those “who eat his flesh and drink his blood, abide in (him).”  It’s likely that this part of John is an early liturgical text of the Christians of the Johannine community, a reminder of how this sacred meal that we partake in, week in and week out has been around for nearly two millennia.    

Not only is the practice of communion ancient, but I find it deeply necessary.  When I need nourishment, I find it at the table.  When I need hope, I find it at the communion rail, people hungry for love, acceptance, grace, and justice, all coming forward and extending their hands and asking, even when they don’t even know it, to become what they receive. 

It’s why to renew my own soul, I’m not traveling to a beach or even a cold-water trout stream, but to an altar rail surrounded by men in cassocks who have committed their whole lives to living out the Gospel of Jesus Christ. 

We get the same opportunity each Sunday, and this week especially I pray that your walk forward on Sunday, that each of our extension of hands will not only help us to ‘behold what we are,’ but ‘become what we receive.’  I look forward to seeing you at the Altar rail on Sunday.  

John+

Questions for Self-Reflection:  How does the practice of communion shape your life?  Have you had transformative moments at the altar rail?

Daily Challenge:  Spend some time navigating the website of SSJE, specifically the monastic wisdom for everyday living.

Turtle 9-1-1 -- August 17

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 119:145-176; PM Psalm 128, 129, 130
Judges 18:16-31; Acts 8:14-25; John 6:1-15 

Yesterday, there was a police officer stopped in my neighborhood, about six houses from our house. The officer’s vehicle was running and his blue lights were on. He was blocking one lane of a road that drivers habitually speed up and down. Standing on the passenger side of his car, he was examining something on the asphalt.

On foot and finishing a jog, I drew closer and realized it was a turtle. Its shell was patterned with the colors of coffee and wheat, probably five inches wide and seven inches long. The tall man crouched down, casting a shadow over the creature. He poured water in the cap of a water bottle, placing it in front of the turtle. He watched and waited.

I offered greeting, as I was walking by. The officer, patient and composed, said he was trying figure out which way the little turtle wanted to go, so that he could set it on its way safely. As we spoke, a car was driving up the road. It stopped behind the police car, before carefully going around. The turtle moved – surprising quickly – toward the shade under the officer. That reptile found safety with the kind and attentive Hoover police officer.

I did not linger to see where the turtle ended up or the officer’s role in that movement. I went home and got ready for work. This morning, the continued story of apostles John and Peter in Acts 8 reminds me of the “turtle 9-1-1” scene. Much like Officer Wiggins, the apostles knew their job – to bring peace, protection, and healing to those in need. They were attuned to the vulnerable ones around them. In Peter and John’s context, it was sharing the Good News with the people of Samaria. The apostles prayed for the Samaritans and laid hands on them, so that they could receive the Holy Spirit. John and Peter wielded this power from God in a discerning, responsible manner. When Simon Magus wanted to capitalize on this apostolic gift to use it for parlor tricks and swindling people out of money, Peter was quick to shut him down. The work of those following Jesus’ directions was to glorify God through sharing the hope and renewal offered in believing the word of God.

Let us pray for one another. Let us ask God to help us open our eyes to the need around us. And, let us use our God-given gifts to spread kindness, hope, and inspiration to those around us.

Katherine+

Questions for Self-Reflection: 

What does seeing a helper in action remind you of?

Who is easy to help? Who is hard to help?

Daily Challenge: 

Pray today for God to open your heart and fill you with the courage you need to offer help and encouragement to someone around you. Then, pause and reflect: where do you need help today?