Nothing will remain… but something new will rise – July 9

As Jesus came out of the temple and was going away, his disciples came to point out to him the buildings of the temple. Then he asked them, ‘You see all these, do you not? Truly I tell you, not one stone will be left here upon another; all will be thrown down.’ – Matthew 24:1-2

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 18:1-20; PM Psalm 18:21-50; Deut. 3:18-28; Rom. 9:19-33; Matt. 24:1-14

In our Gospel today, Jesus is standing outside of Jerusalem on the Mount of Olives just east of the Old City on a ridge that looks over the land.  From that point, he can see all of Jerusalem, and he turns to his disciples and asks them to look at the mighty Jerusalem with the towering Jewish Temple in the Old City and he warns them that nothing that they see will remain. 

I was standing there almost three months ago today with a group from Saint Stephen’s and we were reflecting on this very passage.  Little did we know that when we got on the plane, we would return to a world that would be drastically different than the world we left behind.  We have often focused solely on this passage as a reference to Jesus’ body or the 2nd Temple.  He is crucified just after this and by 70 A.D., the Temple is destroyed. 

But Jesus could also be pointing us to the lack of permanence in all of human life. Everything we know is susceptible to loss.  Our churches will look drastically different as we work through this virus.  Many businesses will change and some will not return.  It’s odd, but I think the greatest threat to progress will be our long-lasting nostalgia that has us clamoring for the good old days.  

One of the most important lectures that still deeply impacts me was listening to Dr. Walter Brueggemann claim that nostalgia leads to violence.  When we misremember the past and hold on to it, we deny the possibility that God is doing something new.  The Israelites were lost without the 2nd Temple but with it came the emergence of Rabbinical Judaism.  For us Christians, we see the temple of God being raised in Jesus Christ, the Resurrection, the dwelling of the Holy Spirit when we gather together, when we love each other, when we live out our faith.  This means something new is taking place.  In our lives and our culture, it’s possible that we will learn a better way of being.  Maybe you are walking more in your neighborhood, or talking to friends, growing in your own self-reflection and who you are called to be, or realizing that your parents are actually enjoyable to talk to as adults. 

God is always doing something new in our midst. We just have to be open to see that work.  May we learn not to fear what will be lost so that we can appreciate what will be gained.  Nothing will remain, but something new will rise.

-       John+

 Questions for Self-Reflection

• In the last three months what things that you love, have you lost?  What new things have you learned or gained?  

Daily Challenge

• Honoring the Maria Kondo approach, take one thing you need to get rid of in your life.  Imagine that thing, give thanks for the joy it brought you, and throw it away!   It doesn’t have to be a physical thing.

It's a Pattern - July 8

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 119:1-24; PM Psalm 12, 13, 14; Deut. 1:1-18; Rom. 9:1-18; Matt. 23:27-39

The other day, after much negotiation, pleading and begging, I was able to convince my children to abandon the grip of Netflix binge-watching from some good old-fashioned arts and crafts.  “We don’t have any crafts Dad!”

 “Just do something creative!” I begged as the hours of television had reached a critical point.

“Fine,” announced Bailey, and off they went on the hunt for arts and crafts supplies which we undoubtedly have plenty of in our household. 

Bailey came back about twenty minutes later with a plastic square with pegs where she had carefully filled it with little plastic beads.  This craft allows you later to take a piece of wax paper and an iron and you can melt the plastic together. “Dad, dad! Look at this!” 

“What is it sweetie?” 

“You don’t know,” she replied. 

“No, I confirmed again.” 

“It’s a pattern!” To be fair, I should have known the answer.  My kids are obsessed with patterns. 

I think some people are wired to see patterns in just about everything we do.  If Bailey had spent a lot of time in Psalms 12, 13, and 14, our selections for this evening (noon if you are participating in our noonday prayers), she would have probably commented on the patterns.  Each Psalm begins with concern, “Help me Lord, for there is no godly one left; the faithful have vanished from among us” (Psalm 12:1) or “How long, O Lord? will you forget me for ever? How long will you hide your face from me?” (Psalm 13:1).  Even Psalm 14, the author claims that “Every one has proved faithless; all alike have turned bad; there is none who does good; no, not one” (Psalm 14:3).  The Israelites sure were consistent with voicing their concern that the world was broken and people were pretty good at screwing up life.  Additionally,  they were concerned with what was assumed as a lack of God’s agency in the midst of their struggles: “How long shall I have perplexity in my mind, and grief in my heart, day after day?” 

Good News – In all three of our Psalms, the story turns around.  It’s a pattern.  “’I will rise up,’ says the Lord, ‘and give them the help they long for’” (Psalm 12:6).  “I will sing to the Lord, for he has dealt with me richly; I will praise the Name of the Lord Most High” (Psalm 13:6).  “Oh, that Israel’s deliverance would come out of Zion!” (Psalm 14:7). 

 As I read the Psalms, I find myself with many of the same questions as the author.  I feel like our world is filled with corruption and people who have proved faithless.  I want to say, “Have they no knowledge, all those evildoers who eat up my people like bread and do not call upon the Lord?”   It’s moderately reassuring to know this is nothing new.  It’s a pattern.  Good thing the story has a beautiful ending. 

-       John+ 

Questions for Self-Reflection

• Where do you see patterns in your own life?

• How do these patterns impact your prayer life?

 Daily Challenge

Remember a time when things were especially tough in your life.  Try to recall how your faith was helpful and use that a source of hope in your prayer life.

How do we find unity when we disagree? - July 7

Today’s Readings:AM Psalm 5, 6; PM Psalm 10, 11; Num. 35:1-3,9-15,30-34; Rom. 8:31-39; Matt. 23:13-26

Perusing today’s lessons, I am finding lots of good possibilities for exploration.   We have a powerful bridge between the secular and religious worlds in Numbers where the Israelites are instructed to set up towns and are then commanded with God’s laws on how to be fair and just to all including the transient alien among them.  There is a commandment not to defile the earth, and how the spilling of blood pollutes what God dwells in.  If I really wanted to exegete this passage (and I am not going to go there) I am sure that where I end up will upset plenty of readers and not go far enough for others. And the irony of this is the New Testament passage paired with this reading is all about unity.  When these two passages are read in dialogue, we get to have a pretty interesting conversation (and I am going to go there).

In Paul’s epistle to the Roman’s (v. 8:38-39), Paul offers one of the most beautiful passages in all of Scripture: “For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor rulers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.”  I have preached using this passage probably more than any other line in all of Scripture.   But I often jump here skipping what Paul has offered just prior to these verses. Paul suggests that the separation from God that we are considering is not one image, or person, or one divisive belief, but hardship, distress, persecution, famine, nakedness (not sure quite what that means), peril, or sword. The challenges we face in life, not explicitly each other, causes us to feel separated from God.

As much as I want to blame other humans for the divisiveness that we experience, a better approach might be to consider the root of the stress that plagues our society.  We blame humans, but Covid-19, violence, inequality, sin, racism, are not only often at the root of the divisiveness but much larger than any one individual.  Yes, individuals play an enormous role in perpetuating the divisiveness and are sometimes the cause of aggravating or activating the root cause, but seeing the root as much larger than the individual may allow us to enter back into conversation with our sisters and brothers with whom we disagree. 

How do we find unity when we disagree so vehemently with each other?  One suggestion could be to see unity not as a common mind, but a commitment to not let the underlying issues that cause our divisions to fracture the sacred commitment to be in relationship with each other.  How is that possible? Answer:  Jesus Christ and the Love of God.  That’s Paul’s answer, and its good enough for me too.    

 — John+

Questions for Self-Reflection

• How have your relationships with people changed in the last few months? 

• Where have relationships been enriched and where have they been strained?

Daily Challenge

• Think of a person with whom you seem to disagree on about everything.  Name three concerns that you likely share. 

How are we going to get out of this mess - July 6

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 1, 2, 3; PM Psalm 4, 7; Num. 32:1-6,16-27; Rom. 8:26-30; Matt. 23:1-12

“Dear God, what should I pray for today?” 

July has arrived which means we have made it to the second half of the year 2020.  For our football fans who are reading, we are at the start of the third quarter, and it feels like we are down 97-3.  But America loves a come-from-behind story and I am hoping for one.  Maybe something like the Reggie Miller 8 point swing in about 9 seconds against the New York Knicks in 1995 or one a little more familiar here in Alabama, when Cam Newton and the Auburn Tigers were down 24-0 in the Iron Bowl.  I keep wondering how in the world are we going to get out of this mess we collectively know as the year 2020.  I am hoping for a comeback of even greater this fall.   Not only am I hoping sports return, but worldwide peace, justice, hope for those who have struggled to find hope, reconciliation, a booming economy, and political unity with a vanquishing of Covid-19 (and all other emerging threats).   Which brings me to today’s question, “How and what do I pray for when life is so crazy?  When people are so divided?  When I myself don’t know what is best? How are we going to get out of this mess?”

Which leads me to ponder, what if we aren’t supposed to know how to get out of this mess?  I am struck with our readings from Paul’s letter to the Roman’s where Paul encourages the community that is also struggling to pray. “Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we ought, but that very Spirit intercedes with sighs too deep for words.  And God, who searches the heart, knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.”  I wonder if what Paul is suggesting that is not a prayer which proposes a certain outcome, but instead an openness to God. 

I have struggled over the years with Romans (v. 8:28) where Paul says that “We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose.” I don’t want to suggest that some of the cruelty, or pain, or violence is God’s will, but it is comforting to think that potentially God is making something beautiful and new out of it.  Maybe to believe this is to let go of outcomes such as preserving or reforming that which needs attention, and instead being open to the movement of God in the midst of our common life. That openness can lead to preserving what God’s need preserved and reforming what God needs to be reformed, but we can be freed from our attachment to what we believe is best. 

I’m hoping the 2nd half of this year is an incredible underdog story that rivals all others.  Why shouldn’t it be?  Our God led the Israelites out of their bondage in Egypt through 40 years of the wilderness into new life and promise.  Our God raised Jesus Christ from the dead.  And from the lives of 12 disciples and a few of their friends, the greatest story in the world has spread, a story of love and hope, and new life to all ends of the earth.   If that isn’t an underdog story, then I don’t know what is. I’m ready to see what this chapter has in store.

-       John+  

Questions for Self-Reflection

• What have you been praying for lately?  Could you let go of those outcomes in your prayer life?

Daily Challenge

• Try 15 minutes of centering prayer with no petitions or intercessions.  Here is a quick guide[1]

• Sit comfortably with your eyes closed, relax, and quiet yourself. Be in love and faith to God.

• Choose a sacred word that best supports your sincere intention to be in the Lord's presence and open to His divine action within you.

• Let that word be gently present as your symbol of your sincere intention to be in the Lord's presence and open to His divine action within you.

• Whenever you become aware of anything (thoughts, feelings, perceptions, images, associations, etc.), simply return to your sacred word, your anchor.

[1] Pennington, Fr. M. Basil. "Centering prayer: Refining the Rules". Review for Religious. 45 (3): 386–393.

Jesus schools the smarty-pants crowd – July 4

Today’s Readings:  AM Psalm 137:1-6(7-9), 144; PM Psalm 104; Num. 24:12-25; Rom. 8:18-25; Matt. 22:23-40

In this reading from the gospel according to Matthew today, the Sadducees publicly propose a test of heavenly logic, framed in an earthly context: Who will a woman be married to in heaven if she has been married seven times – once to each of seven brothers - because her husbands keep dying? The argument is couched in the law delivered by Moses: “If a man dies childless, his brother shall marry the widow…” The Sadducees are not concerned about the “black widow” quality of this woman who apparently runs through husbands like toilet paper. They want to know, when the apocalypse comes, to whom will she be hitched.

Jesus shuts them down swiftly. “You are wrong, because you know neither the scriptures nor the power of God.” Jesus goes to the heart of the prolonged attempts to trick him. His retort begins with a direct strike: You are wrong. Period.

And then, he supports his declaration of the Sadducees’ flawed essence with a two-point foundation: you don’t know the written Word of God – Torah. The law passed down through the generations of our people. The 600+ commandments. The divine revelation of the Lord God through the prophets. And secondly, you don’t understand the spiritual power of God. You cannot conceive of the overarching nature of what God is. You have not been stirred in your heart by the hope and promise extended to God’s people.

Jesus names that what is awry here in this group of people within the Jewish faith is a deficiency in both head and heart. There is a disconnect…a chasm. Because there is a chasm in our world between what occupies our earthly existence, and that which lies beyond the veil of what we see and understand – that divine gift of the broad expanse of God’s realm. The Sadducees trip themselves up with superimposing an earthly construct (human customs of marriage and social infrastructure) upon the divine paradigm that we humans keep trying to put into a box.

Do you ever do this? Put God in a box, stuck in your head? I do. When we do this, we miss the point of God’s love, God’s grace, and the holy joy that is available to us in the invitation to so much more than we can conceive in our own heads. We also miss feeling the glory of that love which passes all understanding. So, let us love the Lord our God with all our heart, and with all our soul, and with all our mind. Heart first. Let’s receive the invitation to feel God’s gift of love.

-- Katherine+

Questions for Reflection

• What questions do you pose to God?

• What questions does God offer to you?

Daily Challenge

What vexes you about God? Journal about what frustrations you have...and invite God's love for you into that space.

Lord, guard the door of my lips – July 3

Today’s Readings:  AM Psalm 140, 142; PM Psalm 141, 143:1-11(12); Num. 24:1-13; Rom. 8:12-17; Matt. 22:15-22

I scroll through social media posts, looking for something different…anything…and then: Ooh! A delicious recipe. Ugh…a disheartening post. Bwa-ha-ha…a hilarious video. I come away with some new (and unhealthy) way to present chicken and cream cheese to my family, a bur under my saddle regarding someone else’s opinion, and maybe a giggle to share. I am amused, but I am not comforted. Momentary distractions are not enough to resolve this wholly uncomfortable time.

When I was six or seven, I went to Eufaula with my friend Caroline and her dad for a weekend at their lake house, complete with fishing, hiking, a bonfire and roasted marshmallows – topped with lots of laughter. On the way home, Mr. Crook treated us to pizza. There was probably “co-cola” (translation: Coca-Cola) involved in our lunch feast, too – because that’s what good fathers give children! We had a rollicking good time and got back on the road to Montgomery. At some point on the journey, I started to feel nauseated. I curled up in the footwell of the backseat to take a nap.

As I slept, the wooziness tapered off and I felt better. Upon waking, another wave of nausea returned. I closed my eyes again. I did not let Caroline’s dad know the extent of my discomfort. Pulling into their neighborhood, he said, “We’re almost there!”, but it was too late. While napping had helped temporarily, my motion sickness was not comforted. I vomited all over the backseat of the relatively new Cadillac. It was awful…on many levels. (Years later, I learned that they had to sell the car, as no amount of cleaning was able to remove the odor.)

I hang on these words today: “Set a guard over my mouth, O Lord; keep watch over the door of my lips. Do not turn my heart to any evil, to busy myself with wicked deeds in company with those who work iniquity…” (Ps. 141:3-4a). Those words of prayer couldn’t help the situation between my mouth and the Cadillac on our journey from Eufaula…that was a lost cause from the Pizza Hut. But, as for living into a faith journey with God in 2020, there is some wisdom in this ancient plea. Before idly scrolling for fleeting comforts, imagine what would happen if we incorporated these three actions as part of our individual spiritual disciplines:

·       Ask God to give us strength to turn back from our own sinful impulses of self-righteousness and pride.

·       Pray for the Lord to provide a sense of centeredness and focus, comfort and direction.

·       Ensure that what we put in our mouths, minds, and hearts is rooted in the source of goodness: God.

With God’s help, the words and deeds flowing from each of us would then be grounded in God’s truth and love. Shall we try?

-- Katherine+

Questions for Reflection

• What person (or issue) is bothering you today?

• What would praying for that person (or issue) look like?

Daily Challenge

Take the words of Psalm 141 to heart today: do not busy yourself with getting swept into the hurtfulness of others. Through meditation, journaling, or some other method, turn to God in prayer for courage to examine your own hurts.

Things that go bump in the night – July 2

Today’s Readings:  AM Psalm 131, 132, [133]; PM Psalm 134, 135; Num. 23:11-26; Rom. 8:1-11; Matt. 22:1-14

As the oldest child, I would often be sent on errands upstairs to gather something that was needed while my mom was cooking dinner. Inevitably, it would be around twilight and prior to my parents turning on lights. We lived in this old, turn-of-the-century two-story house with 15-foot ceilings and creaky floors. The wooden floors upstairs had not been refinished, and the hallway had no windows. The house was spooky sometimes. Imagining a ghost or rambling spirit was easy within those walls. I remember that sense of looming peril as I went into my parents’ shadowy bedroom. Upon grabbing the fingernail clippers or other sundry request, I would blindly dash with all my might down the dark hallway, trying desperately to reach some beacon of light and safety. I can still feel my heart racing wildly and that lurching sensation in my stomach. I can see my nine-year-old fingers extended, grasping for the cool railing of the metal spiral staircase, as light from the kitchen filtered upward. “I made it,” I would think, with a sigh of relief.

It may be no surprise, then, that the images of being thrown into the outer darkness, surrounded by shrieking cries and grinding teeth, laid out for us by Jesus in today’s reading from Matthew set me on edge. I think I am still afraid of the dark. So, join me as we take a deep breath, fumble for a light switch, and look around at where we are in this passage for a moment.

Jesus is in the temple and teaching folks who have gathered. The chief priests and other people in authority come to question him: “Who authorized your actions and what messages are you perpetuating here?” Jesus responds with three parables that we’ve heard this week. Each condemns the sitting Jewish religious leaders, by shining light on the darkness that enshrouds them: the hypocrisy of saying “Yes, Lord,” and not following through (Matthew 21:28-32); the greed of hoarding the treasures of God’s vineyard without gratitude or generosity (21:33-41); and, the arrogance of sitting at the bountiful feast within the kingdom of heaven without the posture of humility and righteousness (22:1-14). Jesus is shining the light of God upon the darkness that lingers over aspects of the religious institution at that time. He names the darkness to open their eyes to God’s truth, so that they may repent.

The Messiah comes to us, too, telling us stories of how we have strayed…so that we might see the light of overflowing grace beckoning us to a place of hope and warmth, delivering us from the “ghoulies, ghosties, and long leggity beasties, and things that go bump in the night”. As we cower or dash about in this time of darkness and fear, we may not think to grab for the light switch, but know that Jesus is alongside you, guiding you to spaces of hope.

-- Katherine+

Questions for Reflection

• What were your childhood fears?

• How are your fears now different?

Daily Challenge 

• Name one thing that frightens you today. Think of an image that defines it. Pray that God will shine a light upon that fear and open your eyes to a new way to respond to that situation.

The Yellow Wildflowers of Texas – July 1

Today’s Readings:  AM Psalm 119:145-176; PM Psalm 128, 129, 130; Num. 22:41-23:12; Rom. 7:13-25; Matt. 21:33-46

When we lived in Austin, Texas, we would go to this great nursery and organic gardening center called The Natural Gardener. It was a little piece of sprawling Hill Country nestled in the exponential growth of an urban mecca. The Natural Gardener's gardens had wildflowers, a babbling brook landscaped with colorful flora, a huge swing, and a petting zoo with fancy chickens, fickle goats and an elusive donkey. There were days in the white-hot summer we would drive the 30+ minutes out to this haven, just for a place to go -- for a change in the rhythm of the week. I found great refreshment wandering the winding paths through herb arrays, edible farming rows, and dusty avenues to small corners of shade. It felt like time slowed down as I ambled and explored.

During one visit in the springtime, we found the Natural Gardener’s labyrinth, aglow with yellow wildflowers growing along the curves and turns. The rocky dust of the ground welcomed feet of all sizes, and the circuitous pathways invited play and prayer. As I read the words of Psalm 119 today, I am reminded of the meditative quality of praying psalms – especially this one. The selection of the words is woven tightly, always revolving around the center: YHWH (Yahweh). God. This portion of Psalm 119 is so raw. The psalmist pleads: I call out to you, God. Life has been hard. I try to keep your laws and statutes. Bring me redemption. It’s a prayer for God’s order in the midst of messy life.

And so, this morning I imagine rehearsing this song of prayer while walking (or tracing) the pattern of a labyrinth. The waves of emotion parallel the turns and switchbacks of the maze of meditation. What a cleansing and centering experience that can be, to allow these ancient prayers to draw us nearer to God. Breathing, praying, being. Being self. Being with God. Being loved.

-- Katherine+

Questions for Reflection

• Where is a place of refreshment and connection for you?

• In your mind’s eye, who else joins you there - friend, family, pet, or Jesus?

Daily Challenge

Spend a few minutes tracing the journey of a labyrinth (click here). When exploring a labyrinth, the pathway in is as challenging as the pathway out. How will you carry your sense of refreshment from God’s grace outward to others today?

Talking donkey?? Sure, why not! - June 30

Today’s Readings:  AM Psalm [120], 121, 122, 123; PM Psalm 124, 125, 126, [127]
Num. 22:21-38; Rom. 7:1-12; Matt. 21:23-32

This week in our Daily Office lectionary, we have an Old Testament narrative of the story of Balaam, a traveling professional seer from Syria. God uses Balaam over the next three chapters to protect the Israelites from curse and attack by Balak, king of Moab. Balaam is not an Israelite or exclusive follower of the Lord God, and yet, due to his spiritual connection with God, Balaam is obedient. And today, we get a story with a flare of whimsy and surprise: a talking donkey.

In a year of many unexpected changes, writing a reflection on Holy Scripture encompassing the tale of a talking donkey was nowhere on my radar. And yet, here we are. Balaam saddles his donkey to start the journey to King Balak, who has appealed again for a curse to be levied against the Israelites. We see God giving mixed messages: assent to the “psychic friend” to go, then anger that he begins his travel. And then, unbeknownst to Balaam, an angel of the Lord stands - invisible to the human eye - in the middle of the road to block his passage. But the donkey sees, and keeps careening off the path to avoid the sword-wielding angel. Balaam hits and chastises the donkey for its nutty behavior. After the third time, God opens the lips of the donkey: “What have I done to you, that you have struck me these three times?”

What?? God opened the lips of the donkey? I am trying to think back during my Christian formation…did I ever learn this story as a kid? I guess this one was overlooked in assembling the curriculum, but it is the only other time in the Bible when God allows a sub-human species to communicate in spoken word across the boundary of humans and animals. (The other was when the serpent spoke to Eve in Genesis.) Perhaps this story was omitted because in most accounts, humans and non-humans are clearly delineated and divided, speaking according to their nature. It is more orderly like that, right?

But this unique fable, in the midst of the book of Numbers, spun and tailored across hundreds of generations, pushes us into a space of discomfort in the unexpected. The lowly donkey is the one who sees God’s angel of aggression and peril. The lowly donkey, though beaten, is faithful to and protective of its owner. The lowly donkey is raised up, becoming the teacher and seer, the voice of wisdom and truth.

Whether that is how it happened or not, this is a piece of the yarn that is woven into our story as people of God. There is more to explore in this fascinating scripture, but for now, let’s just sit with the talking donkey, and marvel at the transformation God can complete in each of us.

-- Katherine+

Questions for Reflection

·       Who tells you the truth?

·       How do you respond when someone you rely on reacts differently than you expect?

Daily Challenge

• After the talking donkey incident, Balaam says, “The word God puts in my mouth, that is what I must say.” Pray that God will put words in your mouth today.

God, help me walk in Jesus’ footsteps – June 29

Today’s Readings:  AM Psalm 106:1-18; PM Psalm 106:19-48; Num. 22:1-21; Rom. 6:12-23; Matt. 21:12-22

The Presiding Bishop, the Most Rev. Michael Curry, held a ZOOM conference call with the clergy of the diocese on Friday morning, leading up to the consecration of Glenda Curry as Bishop Coadjutor for the Diocese of Alabama this past weekend. He reflected on Jesus’ words from John 15:5, 9 – “I am the vine, you are the branches. Those who abide in me and I in them bear much fruit, because apart from me you can do nothing…As the Father has loved me, so I have loved you; abide in my love.” He lingered upon the word “abide” and explored the imagery of branches attached to the vine of Jesus.

Bp. Michael Curry has noticed a pattern in his walk as a Christian. Inevitably, during the times he has listened to himself more than the influence of Jesus, he stumbled. When he has followed the steps of Jesus over and above his own desires, he’s felt on the right path -- closer to God, a branch upon the vine of Jesus. Then he said, “When we have walked in Jesus’ footsteps…saints – flawed sinners though they may be – have popped up.” He named saints like Francis of Assisi, Martin Luther King, Fannie Lou Hamer, Desmond Tutu, and Pope Francis, among others.

This message – abiding in Jesus’ love as the vine, so that our branches may bear beautiful fruit – resonates in tandem with our reading from Romans 6. When I try desperately to have all of life under my control – especially when so much feels like it’s spinning wildly – I stumble. To make it worse, the tension of managing the many moving parts of life builds up in my shoulders and neck – and can overflow into staggering headaches. As John preached yesterday on this very same passage from Romans, I scribbled this paraphrase: sin can be defined as thinking we have it all under control. When we sin, we make missteps. We stumble. It is that sin which weighs us down. What a burden this creates, dominating our mortal bodies.

In thinking we have everything under control, we are not acknowledging the overarching role of God in our lives. The role of love. The role of salvation. The role of sanctification: setting us apart to serve God’s purposes in the world. We become branches detached from the vine, and we miss the wisdom and grace that comes from walking in Jesus’ footsteps. And yet, when our eyes are open to the truth that God is in control, “sin will have no dominion over [us], since [we] are not under law but under grace” (v.14). In that shift, our hands are surrendered for God’s use, and with deep intention our hearts are committed to God.

Today, grab the hand of Jesus. Go to God in prayer. Ask for the Holy Spirit to inspire and guide your steps today, so that you may abide in the love of Jesus. That’s what I am going to try to do, with God’s help.

-- Katherine+

Questions for Reflection

·       Think about a time you have sinned, or stumbled. What were the factors?

·       Ponder how you might walk more closely in Jesus’ footsteps.

Daily Challenge

• Pray the Lord’s Prayer, imagining you are holding Jesus’ hand. Reflect on how the imagery of closeness can reconnect you to the vine of God’s love.

Kumbaya - June 27

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 107:33-43, 108:1-6(7-13); PM Psalm 33; Num. 20:14-29; Rom. 6:1-11; Matt. 21:1-11

Psalm 33 makes me happy and brings me comfort! It is absolutely a psalm/song of praise of God’s sovereignty, goodness, and divine generosity, which is the core reality of our world. I remember the Rev. Denson Franklin would often refer to poetry in his preaching and would say that poetry is best when read aloud. Well, the psalms are a form of poetry and I’m glad we get to read them aloud together for the Daily Office. This one evokes so much joy, it needs to be enjoyed collectively. And it seems fitting to be filled with joy today which is the day of the Rev. Glenda Curry’s ordination and consecration as the new Bishop Coadjutor for the Episcopal Diocese of Alabama. Thanks be to God!

Right from the beginning of Psalm 33, a vivid picture is painted that portrays a glorious and festive celebration of those who love God with rejoicing, music and voices lifted high, and God’s participation by spreading loving-kindness all around. It’s a picture-perfect image of peace and harmony, it’s like they’re singing Kumbaya on steroids! Kumbaya means “come by here” and I need to hear something uplifting and comforting like this today.

A few days ago, I was complaining that it feels like the same things continue to dominate my thoughts and I am riding an emotional roller coaster. The situation with COVID-19 seems to be getting worse and more cases are hitting close to home. I’m tired of physical distancing and miss face-to-face connection through friends, family, and worship. There are people who are not working, who are underemployed, and some who have lost their jobs due to riots. This job situation is maddening. I support the good cops who are serving for our safety and protection, yet I have also been disturbed by the police brutality. Of course, I believe all lives matter, and I understand the movement for Black Lives Matter, and I support peaceful protests, but it’s exhausting to be focusing so much effort toward listening, learning, and discerning how to be part of the solution. All of this compounds the issues that already existed among the sick, vulnerable, and marginalized before everything went to Hell in March 2020. Things are messy and complicated right now. I think it’s still going to take some time for us to get to a new place of stability and well-being, but I do have hope and believe we’ll get there, with God’s help.

The last verse of Psalm 33 is one that serves as a Kumbaya type mantra: Let your loving-kindness, O Lord, be upon us, as we have put our trust in you (Ps. 33:22). God’s loving-kindness can heal us and heal the world, if we put our trust in God. Let us pray for our minds to be quieted and our hearts to be opened so that we may receive God’s love and healing for ourselves and the world.

 -- Susan Oakes, Seminarian

Susan Oakes is a rising senior at the Seminary of the Southwest in Austin, Texas. This summer, she is serving as a seminarian intern at Saint Stephen's, her sponsoring parish for ordination.

Questions for Self-Reflection:

• How are you holding up lately?

• How are you coping?

• What encouragement for others can you offer?

Daily Challenge:

Commit Ps. 33:22 to memory and call upon it when you feel overwhelmed, distressed, uncertain, or afraid.

Jesus, I See You - June 26

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 102; PM Psalm 107:1-32; Num. 20:1-13; Rom. 5:12-21; Matt. 20:29-34

We each hold different images of Jesus. He is portrayed as a shepherd, teacher, healer, son, friend, redeemer, and more. There’s one image I’ve been blind to, and that is the image of liberator. I must admit that I initially resisted the image of liberator because it feels emotionally charged and makes me feel defensive. Yet, this expanded imagery is an important part of my formation that has surprised me with new insights about my relationships with God and neighbor. I had the privilege of developing this new vision even more when I went on pilgrimage to the Holy Land for two weeks right after Christmas. We were able to keep up with the news of the emerging coronavirus, yet the focus of the pilgrimage never shifted from the purpose of Jesus’ life on earth and walking the path of some of the most important moments of his ministry, including his death and resurrection.

One of the last few mornings we were there, another pilgrim and I took advantage of our free time to go back to the Church of the Holy Sepulchre. This is where the site of the Crucifixion, the Resurrection, the stone of anointing, the empty tomb, and the paschal fire are located. We spent time reflecting on our journey and praying together. The most profound moment was witnessing the prayers as people flowed through these spaces, especially the stone of anointing. I could sense their faith and trust in the power and mercy of Jesus as people would kneel down to kiss the stone and pray. I joined in praying and I can still remember the feeling of kneeling among other faithful people, smelling the fragrance of myrrh oil from the stone, and hearing the multitude of prayers and foot shuffles of the people surrounding me.

This experience of pilgrimage and prayer took me beyond reading about Jesus to seeing, walking, hearing, smelling, and feeling the places I’ve studied and opening my heart and mind to a richer understanding of his purpose. The sense of knowing things in my mind shifted to a special knowing in my heart and soul also. Jesus liberates us from our sinfulness and oppression through forgiveness, healing, teaching, and directing our lives.  I have discovered that I am oppressed, myself, by my sins, and I depend upon Jesus for liberation. Matthew’s passage about Jesus healing the sight of the two along the way from Jericho reminds me of my own sight being healed and the power of prayer. The good news I have for you is that you do not have to travel across the globe to encounter Jesus because he is ready to meet you along your journey wherever you are and eager to be in dialogue about what you need to be healed and made whole.

-- Susan Oakes, Seminarian

Susan Oakes is a rising senior at the Seminary of the Southwest in Austin, Texas. This summer, she is serving as a seminarian intern at Saint Stephen's, her sponsoring parish for ordination.

Questions for Self-Reflection:

• What image comes to mind when you think of Jesus?

• What image do you resist, and why?

Daily Challenge:

• Consider your prayer life and what you to ask of Jesus to do for you through faith.

Guided by God's Love - June 25

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 105:1-22; PM Psalm 105:23-45; Num. 17:1-11; Rom. 5:1-11; Matt. 20:17-28

“…God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit…” (Romans 5:5)

I can’t read this passage from Romans without recalling the time that I ran a marathon. It’s hard to run a marathon, it’s not natural for a body to run that far, and it hurts…a LOT. It’s also like having a part time job because it’s very time consuming. It’s not like you just show up on race day and start running. NO! When someone decides to run a marathon, they spend months training for it. This involves running almost daily, as well as meal plans and extra time for physical therapy and naps. The runner also learns as the training gets harder to dig deeper into their soul for the drive to not quit this difficult thing. Then on race day, the runner gets in the right mind space to be able to push through the pain, with the goal to finish the race. And the race is not actually a race for speed, it’s a goal to finish. At the finish line, every runner wins the satisfaction of accomplishing something big that requires much suffering, endurance, character, and hope.

I think this marathon imagery is a good metaphor for the signs of our times right now. Striving to overcome the challenges of COVID-19, racial unrest, and economics requires the long, difficult, and painful commitment to get us to the finish line. I’m not sure if we even know where the finish line is located, but I think the concept still works. What this marathon imagery does NOT include is the crucial element of God’s love being poured into our hearts through the power of the Holy Spirit (Romans 5:5).

As Christians, we are guided by God’s love for us to reach the finish line of this hard race. Many of us are feeling a sharp sense of urgency for a better world and that’s the finish line we are racing toward. We have suffered such tremendous losses that there is now a creative tension between what has been the status quo and what is now possible. Guided by God’s love being poured into our hearts, we are striving for a world that reflects the good news of our forgiveness and restoration in Jesus Christ. God’s love is powerful, and this gives me hope that we will cross that finish line, though it is not quite in sight.

 -- Susan Oakes, Seminarian

Susan Oakes is a rising senior at the Seminary of the Southwest in Austin, Texas. This summer, she is serving as a seminarian intern at Saint Stephen's, her sponsoring parish for ordination.

Questions for Self-Reflection:

• What sense of urgency do you feel for your world right now?

• What will it take to cross the finish line? 

Daily Challenge:

Watch for God’s love being present and guiding yourself or others. Gives thanks for this in your prayers.

Let Our Hearts Be Softened - June 24

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 101, 109:1-4(5-19)20-30; PM Psalm 119:121-144; Num. 16:36-50; Rom. 4:13-25; Matt. 20:1-16

“Am I not allowed to do what I choose with what belongs to me? Or are you envious because I am generous?” (Matthew 20:15)

Today’s gospel passage is tricky, and being completely honest, I can easily get irritated with the workers who are hired last and receive the same wages as the first shift. And, of course, I always imagine myself among the workers who are first, the ones who are working the longest hours, bearing the burden in the scorching heat. Not fair. This parable fits right in line with the other parables Jesus has been telling about the kingdom of heaven and what it takes to receive eternal life. But I’m just not seeing the good news in this one…yet.

Because of my own irritation with this passage, I needed to do some digging to uncover the good news of this parable. That recurring phrase about the first being last and the last being first is hard and I was investigating that part. But what actually captured my attention is the word “envious” and it turns out this is an important word. Being envious has to do with how the world is seen. The eye is described a few chapters earlier as a lamp of the body. Is our eye healthy or unhealthy? If our eye is healthy, our whole body is full of light; to the contrary, an unhealthy eye fills the body with darkness. In this passage, the question Jesus asks, “are you envious because I am generous?” is the same as asking, “is your eye evil?” This gets my attention. Am I seeing God’s love and goodness, and reflecting the light of Christ in my life? Or am I envious and seeing through the eyes of judgment, fear, jealousy, and darkness? For me, as much as I hate to admit it, it’s both. Sometimes my sight is healthy and others it’s not.

This is not just any old vineyard Jesus portrays…this is God’s vineyard! This parable is about God’s love, justice, and mercy. God rewards those who are in the vineyard because these are God’s people and God loves them and wants to draw everyone to the vineyard. It doesn’t matter when, what matters is that everyone arrives. I think my irritation is rooted in my understanding of our capitalist economic system which is based on competition. BUT with God’s free gift economy there is no competition because there’s enough of God’s love, justice, and mercy to go around for as many people who seek God’s kingdom. In fact, in God’s vineyard – the kingdom of heaven – the more the merrier!

Someone offered prayers for our hearts to be softened during the Daily Office yesterday, and I think that gets to the heart of what the kingdom of heaven is about. The world needs us to release our envy and soften our hearts for each other right now. Softening our hearts allows us to reflect the light and love of Jesus. As we work for God’s kingdom, let us be glad that we are God’s people and welcome others to join in the work to receive the same love, justice, and mercy that we’ve already received.

-- Susan Oakes, Seminarian

Susan Oakes is a rising senior at the Seminary of the Southwest in Austin, Texas. This summer, she is serving as a seminarian intern at Saint Stephen's, her sponsoring parish for ordination.

Questions for Self-Reflection:

• Have you ever invited someone into kingdom work or questioned someone else’s work?

Daily Challenge:

• In real life, it’s easy to hold the posture of envy and judgment. Think of a time that you have held this posture and pray about it, asking God to soften your heart.

Constant Contact - June 23

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 97, 99, [100]; PM Psalm 94, [95]; Num. 16:20-35; Rom. 4:1-12; Matt. 19:23-30

My husband observed on one of my visits home from seminary last year, “I love how your music follows you around wherever you go.” It’s true, I love music and it is often with me playing from my phone in my pocket. I’m not a great singer, but I often sing anyway. And when it’s the right song in the right moment, I sing loud and proud. Music has a way of touching my soul that is beyond the lyrics alone. Music sets the tone, enhances a mood, or helps me express myself, and I usually select my playlist accordingly. Certain songs also remind me of a certain person, time, or place.

Some time back, I heard about the Avett Brothers and I became obsessed with their music when I discovered they were singing about the story of my life. There was one song, in particular, that helped me make peace with God and myself because I had been experiencing a spiritual awakening and reckoning with some bad choices I had made. I had been finding my way back to God. Not only finding my way back, but running back to God because of my need for God. I had thought I had things under control on my own, but in fact, I didn’t have life so great on my own after all. In embracing my dependence on God, I began feeling joy I hadn’t experienced in quite some time. This Avett Brothers song is called “All My Mistakes.” I’m pretty sure it’s a love song about a woman, but for me, it’s a love song about my relationship with God.

 As time passed by, I noticed more songs that tell the story of my life and relationship with God. I began compiling a song list to tell my spiritual autobiography that includes a variety of songs from a variety of artists. Listening to the lyrics of songs usually keeps me connected to God in some way – be it through the lyrics, themselves, or through the emotions they evoke. Through music, I am in constant prayer.

Someone typed a comment during the service on Sunday that the music is as important as the preaching, and I don’t disagree with that statement. This is why music amplifies worship. The psalms are often chanted or sung as hymns that reflect our relationship with God through lament and petition, thanksgiving and praise. They reveal our absolute dependence on God. The laments are especially important because they help us re-establish our posture for praise.

 I have enjoyed learning to chant the psalms and sing canticles during seminary. Before seminary, I had only ever prayed Morning Prayer a few random times and wasn’t aware of its significance. Psalm 95, aka, the Venite (Latin for “come!”, the first word of the poem) has become one of my grounding psalms because it has become such a familiar hymn of celebrating God through Morning Prayer. This is also one of the (optional) appointed psalms for today, so I was excited to remind myself of its significance. It is not unlike the Avett Brothers song that reminds me of my dependence upon and praise of the Lord. Perhaps this psalm is becoming more familiar to you also over the months of daily Morning Prayer we’ve been practicing together. What songs and psalms reflect your relationship with God?

-- Susan Oakes, Seminarian

Susan Oakes is a rising senior at the Seminary of the Southwest in Austin, Texas. This summer, she is serving as a seminarian intern at Saint Stephen's, her sponsoring parish for ordination.

 Questions for Self-Reflection

• What song or psalm connects with your spirit these days?

• What is it about this song or psalm that attracts you most?

Daily Challenge

• I invite you to listen carefully to the lyrics of this psalm and others to see what you notice through the words, the imagery evoked through metaphors, and other ways in which the heart and mind are addressed.

You Have Gone Too Far, Moses! - June 22

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 89:1-18; PM Psalm 89:19-52; Num. 16:1-19; Rom. 3:21-31; Matt. 19:13-22

You have gone too far, Moses! This is what Korah says when he confronts Moses, accusing him and Aaron of taking on too much leadership. Moses pushes back, stakes his claim as their leader, and even challenges the Levites as having gone too far. They’ve drawn a line in the sand against each other to compete for who is the holiest and right. There is mutiny, anger, and pride coming from all sides. I’m wondering if this scene feels familiar to anyone else besides me? 

I was recently chatting with my oldest son about his job and he described a component that’s called Quality Assurance. You might know what this is, but basically, Quality Assurance functions best by resolving problems at the root cause, rather than reacting to a problem once it’s gotten bigger than it was at the source, itself. Things can go too far. If the issue gets past Quality Assurance, it’s bigger, more expensive, and more complicated and challenging to resolve. We related this concept to some of the issues happening currently.

Have we gone too far? It seems like things have gotten too big and complex. Sometimes it feels like mutiny. Strong convictions abound. What if we employed the Quality Assurance method of examining what’s at the source of things we’re trying to solve? Perhaps we need to take a few steps back from the lines drawn in the sand and let go of anger and pride. In doing so, we can possibly come together with more give and take. There we might find less divisiveness and more peace, more quality. What if we used the Quality Assurance method of examining what’s at the source of ourselves and our spiritual lives? Would we live our lives and make decisions differently if we got to the heart of the matter of who we are?

In the reading from Matthew, Jesus is approached by someone doing this very thing, seeking their source for eternal life. Jesus instructs them to sell their possessions and give the money to the poor…then to follow Jesus. They leave in grief because they have many possessions. Has Jesus gone too far? It’s obviously not easy to follow Jesus, but eternal life doesn’t have to be some far-off destination; it can begin here and now. How far are we willing to go to follow Jesus?

-- Susan Oakes, Seminarian

Susan Oakes is a rising senior at the Seminary of the Southwest in Austin, Texas. This summer, she is serving as a seminarian intern at Saint Stephen's, her sponsoring parish for ordination.

Questions for Self-Reflection:

• Consider your “possessions” – resources of time, money, material goods, or skills, or possessions of beliefs, values, knowledge, etc. What are your possessions? Have you examined them lately with the Quality Control method of who you are as a Christian?

Daily Challenge:

• What is Jesus asking you to give up in order to follow him? How far are you willing to go?

This too shall pass. It might feel like a Kidney Stone, but it will pass. - June 20

In 2000, a television show came out on HBO called, Curb Your Enthusiasm. I remember watching some of the first few episodes and telling others that it was the funniest show I had ever seen. But the more I watched the show, the more uncomfortable I became. The general premise of the show was based on the exaggerated life of Larry David, the creator of Seinfeld. Each episode felt more and more like watching a trainwreck unfold as David’s awkward faux pas would lead to some horrible embarrassing moment in his life or the life of his family. The more episodes I watched, the more anxious I became. And then I just gave up. “I can’t watch this anymore. Nothing good ever happens to him!”

But I was in the minority. Most people loved the show and Curb Your Enthusiasm ran for 10 seasons with an average rating of 92% on Rotten Tomatoes. For those of you who are not TV buffs, that is pretty darn good. As I read the Psalm for this morning, specifically Psalm 90, I have been thinking about my own antipathy with discomfort. Why couldn't I handle this great show? I want everything to resolve into a beautiful and happy ending, but that is exceptionally naïve. The best meme I have seen about 2020 is “This too shall pass. It might pass like a kidney stone, but it will pass.”

Psalm 90 begins by giving thanks to God for being our strength and refuge and naming all the wonderful things that God has done, but then it gets real. “In the morning, it is green and flourishes, in the evening it is dried up and withered (v.6).” Later, “The span of our life is seventy years, perhaps in strength even eighty; yet the sum of them is but labor and sorrow, for they pass away quickly and we are gone (v.10).” I am struck at the remarkable clarity of the Israelites to name life as a combination of labor and sorrow. They know better than anyone that life is not easy and not everything resolves with a beautiful and happy ending.

And yet, the psalmist asks for God to “make us glad by the measure of the days that you afflicted us and the years in which we suffered adversity (v.15)” and my absolute favorite, “May the graciousness of the Lord our God be upon us; prosper the work of our hands; prosper our handiwork (v.17).” Even when life is incredibly challenging, the Israelites were asking for their work to be the work of God, and to be glad in the life that they had. They weren’t scared of discomfort.

I don’t know about you, but 2020 kind of feels like watching Curb Your Enthusiasm; there seems no logical way this is going to end well for anyone. But if I really believed that I would be discounting the beautiful tradition that has been passed down to us. Instead of being anxious about where this story will go, Psalm 90 is asking me to be a little more faithful, and to see God as a part of the work that we all are doing in the midst of it. This too shall pass. It might pass like a kidney stone, but it will pass.

--John+

Questions for Self-Reflection

• What parts of this year make you the most anxious?

• Can you see God blessing your handiwork in the midst of this?

Daily Challenge

• Read Psalm 90. Try to give thanks for the challenges you have faced this year, including things that have been lost.

Why do I feel wronged when we Disagree – June 19

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 88; PM Psalm 91, 92; Num. 13:1-3,21-30; Rom. 2:25-3:8; Matt. 18:21-35

I have thought a lot recently about asking people to fast from social media. While we are at it, a fast from the news might not be a bad idea either. But then I log on to Facebook every day to stream our services or prepare for Sunday worship and it dawned on me that if I asked people to fast from social media, we might not have anyone attend church!  Maybe not everything about social media is so bad. 

But I joke about this because it seems to me that much of what I end up reading online is aimed at stoking anger.  It is easy for me to get worked up at another position, or I find myself outraged at the behavior of other people as I try to agree with a position.  It becomes too easy for me (and I wonder if you feel the same way) to then believe that when a person holds what I find to be an offensive position, that I have been wronged by that person.  Of course, this is not true in almost all cases, but it seems like our common civic discourse is aimed at not only dividing us but entitling us to a feeling of being wronged by the other.    

In today’s Gospel, Jesus reminds Peter that you don’t forgive someone who has wronged you seven times, but seventy-seven.  I actually don’t think we are supposed to keep tabs and many people interpret this text to be infinite times.  It’s not about a number for Jesus.  I wonder if it would be helpful if we applied what Jesus suggests not only to when we are wronged, but when we feel wronged as well. What Jesus sets up is a posture of forgiveness that becomes a virtue that shapes our life. Maybe this way of being could turn our anger into empathy, our outrage into listening, and our feeling unsettled into seeking understanding.  At the very least it might move us back to being able to hold diverse and divergent positions in a healthy tension. 

--John+

Questions for Self-Reflection

• Have any of your relationships with close friends who hold different views than you changed in the last few months?  What about the people you are not very close to?

Daily Challenge

• During our Morning Prayer worship services, we have been confessing and receiving God’s absolution.  This week, try hearing the absolution being offered to the people who frustrate you the most. 

God and the Pacifier-Stuffy Combo - June 18

Today’s Reflections: AM Psalm [83] or 34; PM Psalm 85, 86; Num. 12:1-16; Rom. 2:12-24; Matt. 18:10-20

I was walking down Jemison trail last weekend when I came upon something unique. On top of a sign was one of those rememberable pacifiers that have the stuffed animal attached. A person walking that day had likely picked it up and put in a place where the owner’s family might find it again. We had the same special pacifiers when my children were much younger and the general rule of thumb was never leave the house without it. A pacifier can do wonders to soothe a crying a child, but a pacifier with a stuffed animal, it’s the ultimate source of comfort. The feeling of walking by that pacifier-stuffy combo left me with a feeling of dread. What if some poor child is bellowing their heart out and the parents can’t do anything to stop it. I am betting that a few hours later, some poor, worn-out mother or father, would come panting down Jemison trail, exhausted, to have their spirits lifted with this gift in plain sight.

Now that you have this image in your head, imagine the older siblings. They probably want to go get ice cream at Doodles, or a treat from Marble Slab. Their parents promised them this gift after a week of following instructions, saying ‘please’ and ‘thank you’, and doing all their chores. But now their morning has been shaken because the parents are on the hunt for the baby’s special binky. This is why older siblings are often so frustrated at their younger counterparts. The party is often ruined just so the youngest can be made whole. “What about everyone else?” cries the older sister.

In today’s Gospel, Matthew’s Gospel addresses a similar dilemma. Jesus says to his disciples, “What do you think? If a shepherd has a hundred sheep, and one of them has gone astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine on the mountains and go in search of the one that went astray? And if he finds it, truly I tell you, he rejoices over it more than over the ninety-nine that never went astray. So it is not the will of your Father in heaven that one of these little ones should be lost.” I have read this passage being quoted a lot lately when people reference marginalized communities hurting or crying out. Wouldn’t God be seeking them?

I’m an oldest sibling, so the story I have imaged from the beloved pacifier I saw on Saturday, brings back memories, of wanting to keep moving forward, but having to allow my sister to catch up. I wonder how those ninety-nine sheep were feeling. Were they complaining to each other about what should be theirs or what they should do next? Were they frustrated that the shepherd was ignoring them? Did they believe that the shepherd didn’t think they mattered?

Maybe I’m feeling a little guilty. I wish instead of me worrying about the opportunities that I missed, I could have seen the beauty of the care and love and nurture of someone else who needed it more. I saw it when I passed the pacifier, and I wonder where I will see it next.

— John+

Questions for Self-Reflection

• Have there been times where you have been a part of a group and the group couldn’t advance because of someone else? Did an instructor spend too much time with a person who was struggling? What did you feel at the moment?

Daily Reflection

• Find one way of offering a helping hand to someone in need today, specifically something that you haven’t needed help with before.

Faith like a Child – June 17

Today’s Readings: AM Psalm 119:97-120; PM Psalm 81, 82; Num. 11:24-33 (34-35); Rom. 1:28-2:11; Matt. 18:1-9

This summer, our 20-year-old nephew, Will, has come to live with us as he interns at a local bank.  Having Will stay with us has been a whole lot of fun, not only for Anne and me, but our children as well.  Watching our oldest son act almost as if he has an older brother for the first time, and maybe Will having younger siblings is pretty interesting.  Will looked at our son yesterday and said, “Jack, this is primetime for you.  My dad always said the best time to be alive is between the ages of 6-10.  It’s all fun all the time and no responsibility!”  I would have said Will’s age of the early 20s was more fun, but his comment has me considering the alternative. 

What is it that often makes those adolescent years so much fun?  I wonder if it is the curiosity with which one embraces life.  Or maybe the persistent asking of why while having a hopeful optimism that all shall be well.  I am sure not every child’s experience is beautiful, but I suspect the odds are in their favor that time and experience hasn’t worn them down too much.  There is often a beautiful faith in the parent to be able to fix just about anything.  Later that concept is shattered when we realize our parents are just as clueless as we are at their age, but the child has yet to realize that. 

Maybe, it is with some of these same thoughts, that the author of Matthew’s Gospel shares the story of Jesus reminding the disciples to have faith like a child.  “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.”  What is it about children that set them apart from adults?  Is it their faith mixed with a general curiosity about everything else? 

I keep watching a natural posturing of defensiveness in our current climate of common life in the world.  Maybe it’s not unique to the craziness of 2020 but is an attribute to adulthood.  We have gone through a lot to get to the place where we are, so we ought to know something!   But children approach things (usually and on a good day) with curiosity. They are open to learning something new. Maybe our Gospel for today is an invitation to consider that we might not know it all, that we are called to have a posture of curiosity, so that we might always be open to learn something new.  And if you also think the 20s are the best, then the best is yet to come.   

— John+

Questions for Self-Reflection

• What ideas or thoughts did you have as a child that haven’t panned out as you thought they would?

• Where does the wisdom you have gained from life-experience get in the way of living a faithful life?

Daily Challenge

• Think of the concerns that are most pressing to you today.  Craft a response of wisdom that you imagine an eight-year-old offering.